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Thursday, June 30, 2005

some quiz to spice up my life at work..sianz..taken from kl's bloggie..

here's the results:

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Reminiscing stops at |11:06 AM|

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Took mc todae..
Basically, juz dun feel lyk gg to work animore, no mood is one reason, another is juz dun wan step into the horrible, terrible atrocious place. Hate that place. Hate the bitches there. Hate the corpse smell there.
Can't wait for friday to cum, last dae of work.

Went watch War of the Worlds with edwin todae. i juz luv Steven Spielberg's films, his movies are excellent, both the sound and vision effects are extraordinary. Certainly, War of the World is damn nice, exciting, and definitely worth watching. Just can't imagine how would i react if aliens really attack our planet, tink i'll juz die there, bet i won't be as strong as dose who fought bravely for their survival. However, the ending is kind of..hmm..unexpected? and anti-climax?. We thought the soldiers and Tom Cruise will cont to fight against all the aliens, yet, it turned out that, the aliens juz can't survive on its own on earth as dey do nt have the immune system that we human beings have, dey'll eventually wiped out wif or without the soldiers fighting them. Of course, some of the parts are really touching and i almost cried, lyk the scene when Tom Cruise tried to stop his son from joining the army to fight the aliens, and when Tom Cruise thought he had lost his son, the looks in his eyes, the tears in his eyes, the yi yi bu she in his eyes is so touching. Undeniably, Tom Cruise is as shuai as ever, despite his age..hmm..y some ppl juz still have such gd looks even when dey are aging? hmm..

Come to tink of it, it has been almost 2 years liao, but i just can't ignore it. I have been telling myself and everyone that we are juz gd frenz, telling myself and others hundred millions of times that i don't like him, but i found out that, i just can't control my feelings. Everytime i see him, i tok 2 him, i tried to treat him like normal frenz, lyk hw i treat my other frenz. I can't..i just feel myself crawling back to him.I can't b my crazy self in front of him lyk myself in front of others.
Our interest juz clashed. We have totally different thinkings, aims, etc.Recently, i just can't stand him being mcp. I hate it. Maybe coz i'm FCP? ya, i admit i'm. That's y, how can a MCP and FCP b tgt?

Backstreet Boys - Crawling back to you

Everybody knows that I was such a fool to ever let go of you
Baby I was wrong
Yeah I know I said we'd be better off alone
It was time that we moved on
I know I broke your heart, I didn't mean to break your heart
But baby here I am

Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you

I know you're in there and you can make me wait
But I'm not gonna wait
It's the least that I can do, just to tell you face to face
I was lying to myself, now I'm dying in this hell
Girl I know you're mad, I can't blame you for being mad
But baby here I am

Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and now I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you

If you could see these tears I'm crying
Touch these hands that can't stop shaking
Hear my heart that's barely beating
You will see a different man

But baby here I am
Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and I'm crawling back to you (come on)
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in? (let me in)
I was running from the truth, now I'm crawling back to you

Banging on your front door (darling)
My pride spilled on the floor
I was running from the truth, now I'm crawling back to you, yeah
Now I'm crawling back to you
Crawling back to you
Crawling back to you
Crawling back to you

Reminiscing stops at |6:35 PM|

Monday, June 27, 2005

went to extract my 2nd wisdom tooth. At lst, i tot it'll be a minor operation instead of extraction lyk last time, then i would b able to get my one wk mc, n able to stay away form the horrible, terrible place(work). However, i din expect my tooth to grow exceptionally fast that, the doc was telling me,"hmm..seems lyk u dun nid ani operation liao, ur tooth has come out and extraction will do." Upon hearing this, i was so sad..SAD..which means i have to go back wrk for 3 daes, wed, thurs, n fri..all my plans for the week have vanished..wth

TS..finallie u are back gal..better update urself leh..hahah..so mani thingys happened when u are nt ard..hahha
So sorry to pang seh u for the 2 movies, Initial D and War of the Worlds..so soorrrriiiieeee..

Currently, our fav song..
Green Day - Wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

Like my father's come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars

Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost

Wake me up when Septmber ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when Septmber ends

Ring out the bells again
Like we did when spring began

Wake me up when septmber ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars

Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost

Wake me up when septmber ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when Septmber ends

Like my father's come to pass
Twenty years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends

Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends

Reminiscing stops at |7:50 PM|

Saturday, June 25, 2005

went watch movie, initial D wif kl, wat can i sae? it's juz so damn nice, cool and funny. Feel like watching it again. it's so exciting, esp the cars races. lyk, kl said, the ending is so abrupt, but overall, it's worth watching, esp wif shuai ges, lyk jay chou and Edison chen. Jay chou was protrayed as a soft and nice guy, totally diff from the singer in real life. And i lyk the eng song which is the backgrd music of the races, but dunno wat';s the title and hu's the singer, anione noes?

oh ya, todae saw the ad of new upcoming movie, crash. Seems nice, esp wif one of my fav actor, ryan phillipe, haven seen him in action for a long long time. Can't wait for the movie to b shown

Reminiscing stops at |10:11 PM|

Friday, June 24, 2005

last dae of work tend to b the unforgettable dae of one's life, and it did leave me a deep impression, which i won't forget at all.

I cried on this day, nt coz i'll miss all my fellow beloved colleagues or i'm going to leave the company for good, but i was scolded by the SO, in fact, kana accused of nt teaching my colleague wat she's supposed to do when i left. I am nt a verbal person, yet i was so frustrated and angry wif the accusation that tears juz roll dwn mi face uncontrollably. i could nt help it, i tried to defend myself, but wat the use? it seems tt both the old lady (hu went to tell the SO i did nt teach her when in fact i taught her the whole of yesterdae) and the SO are picking on me. In the end, after lunch, tt bitch came foward and told me, thank you for my patience. WTH, after she went to tok bad bout me, then she told me dis? and the SO came oso, tried to explain the situation juz nw. I juz can't b bothered bout her. juz dun understand, how can someone cum and explain thingys when she had scolded the person so fiercely in front of everyone. It's the same as, punching someone and said soorie to them afterwards, wat's the diff? one's already been hurt, juz by explaining or saeing sorrie cannot remove the hurts in the heart. Maybe, tt SO was juz trying to soften the situation after she knew i cried for she was worried that i would go to the HR to lodge a complaint against her, for her reputation at the HR was so atriocious, it's no wonder till nw she was nt promoted at all. However, i did not do so, i can't b bothered, and i felt it's really bad to do so.

bsides, these unhappy matters, and unpleasant bitches, i reallie do enjoy wrking in this company, the memories, be it gd or bad, will b deeply embedded in my heart. i'll miss the times wif all mi colleagues, the jokes, craps, gossips, and of coz the lunches, the milo/coffee makings, the funnie emails, and the crappy fone calls...
Firstly, i'll miss my old dept, under our great boss, michael, whom offered mi dis contract and let mi stayed for about 6mths to continue wrking wif mi fellow colleagues and miting new colleagues, making new frenz for a lifetime. I'll definitely miss his softness and calm pose that he protrayed during meetings, of coz, nt forgetting the expensive lunches and dinners he treated us.
Thank you so much, Janice. You are a wonderful fren, lyk a big sister, protecting me alwaze. i'll miss the times wrking wif u, and of coz, the craps and jokes and secrets that we shared. Wrking wif you really make me feel so much happy, and cheeful, despite the boring monkey job we are doing.haha. You really brighten up my daes in this company. i'll miss you very much, and do keep in touch, go out for occasion coffee?..oops..we dun drink coffees,..hahah..cold chocolate, i mean. All the best to you, and hope you'll enjoy ur new job, my fellow KPO ZORO..
Of coz, nt forgetting the crappy, acting cute mr ban. i'll miss ur disturbance, and of cuz, miss bullying you..hahah..all ur craps, and cold jokes reallie create luffters in the office. Will nvr forget this guy, hu;'s alwaze under the crtl of his gf, and he can b noticed standing or sitting quietly wif the fone at his ears, listening to the preaching or mabe swt tokings from his gd?haha.
to u too, lisa, our lao da. You are like a big knowledgable sis. whenever, i have any problem, i'll definitely approach you, for u are so approachable, easygoing, and of coz, u alwaze give me sensible and reasonable comments. I'll miss ya, lao da, miss the times, u made milos for me, and all the suaning.
Karen, lao er, i'll miss ya too..chio bu..miss the times, u calling mi baby or big baby. n still rmb the times, we ask u to join the s'pore peagant, and of coz, the frowning and bad face u have when u are calling the customers.haha
Carol, lao san. gg to miss your gossips, and luffters, and of coz, the times, we tried to imitate AA's imfamous luffter. hahah.though do nt have a gd impression of u in the lst place, after tt, we tend to bcum closer liao, wif the lunches we had evreydae.miss ya gal.
nt forgetting one of the few other races fren, nafeesah. Will alwaze rmb u, u dirty-minded sicko..hahah..and the times, we went to gym and the klasses lyk bodystep and body combat we went, n of coz, u r alwaze bathing so so so so so slow. will miss ya craps and dirty jokes?hahah..
lastly, Ivan, the nice-tempered wif some MCP guy, will rmb you, alwaze trying to org dept outings lyk the KTV, dinner, Badminton games, etc. Do appreciate ur efforts.haha..and get married early, so i can go attend ur wedding b4 i left for china to study in 3 yrs times.hahah
and of coz, dose from mi old dept, lyk shawn, angela, noraini, josephine, thanks for helping me in one way or another, though angela, has been another bitchy SO, but u did reallie show me how an office bitch will look lyk, so i shld still thank you too.
Though i do nt lyk much of mi new dept nw, i muz oso thanks them for they showed me hw the office conflicts are lyk, and hw selfish ppl can b, juz wan to cover their ass as much as possible, denying all the faults they did.
However, i did make some gd frenz thr, lyk jessica, tp attachment, though juz noe u long ago and the recent lunches we had, i enjoyed the times tgt, and thanks lotsa for ur craps too, alwaze will rmb ur amny coffee breaks and the suaning by mr poo...
Nof coz, there's the GM aka golden monkey,rong feng, the guy wif gold hair. The one i asked the sensitive qns to.hahah..and thanks for all ur crapz and suaning, though sometimes one can really vomit blood,it does really brighten up my daes at the terrible, horrible place.
Nt forgetting, the kind, helpful, blurr mark, and mr ho and mr yeo. Thanks for your care and concern these 3 wks.
There's still the POA team from another dept i get to noe them better recently, lyk azrina, andrew, joel aka fatty J, karen, christopher aka ah poo, desmond aka POB aka president of Batam, etc. All your jokes, craps, names-calling, or watever, funnie proposal reallie do make mi luff and life would nt be so interesting w/o u all, fun crazy group of ppl, and the funnie emails send to me. I'll definitely miss ya all badly..reallie BADLY...
there's of coz another dept, MIS, our old neighbour team. Will miss ya all badly, wif the occassion funnie chit chats, and parties tgt, lyk the xmas party. Thanks lotsa, and luv ya all. This is esp to, Elaine, Poh Kim, May, Kachi, Eugene, Sherry.
Of coz, dedicating some space for the forever talkative eugene. Thanks beng for all the craps and jokes u shared wif us, either when we were at the 17th floor, or ur visits to tong eng. Though at lst, we did find u a little irritating, wif ur non-stop toking at wrk, we soon found it entertaining to our boring jobs. Thanks for being our entertainer, do keep in touch, esp when u are rich and do design some jewellry for us wif ur artistic hands FOC.

enuff of the thanking, if i will to miss out anione, do forgive me, there's so much to thank and write..

so basically, bsides the unpleasant incident, everythingy went on quite smoothly, and we were slacking away. Jancie even help us palm-read some of our fortune for fun..might nt accurate one, and she said i will have an affairs after marriage? wth, can't b lar, i so loyal, at least better than some hu's a flirt, who have more than 5 mistresses..hahah

so nxt mon, will be gg to extract my wisdom tooth, hoping that nice, stingy doc will grant me one wk mc, so that, i'll b away from the terrible, horrible place forever.
Can't wait for nxt wk to cum..bsides mon, wed, will b catching Wars of the World wif win, thurs, shopping wif mum, to get my sports shoes and sports bags, and of coz, fri, going back to office, to have lunch wif mi ex-colleagues and mabe KTV too? and of coz, to pass them prez..yeah!!!

PS: thanks to kl and wq..thank you for listening to me dis afternoon, sorie to disturb u all during lunch..thanks lotsa..luv ya..

Reminiscing stops at |8:35 PM|

Thursday, June 23, 2005

decisions..decisions..decisions

at the age of 19, juz dis year, i had to make so much decisions myself. Firstly, there's the job contract thingy, which i had been wondering if i shld accept the the 6-mths contract for the job (i did). However, i ended up terminating the contract juz 5 mths plus, missing out mi bonus.(it can't be helped since ntu is starting sch juz after the last dae of the contract) Next, came the university and the courses that i wan to study, that will affect my future. In the end, i chose the double degree in ntu, juz hope that i made a right decision after all. Then, there's the hostel thingy and now the orientation stuffs. At lst, want to go for the SBS orientation camp and the Halls FOC, but the camps are so ex, and looking at the orientation package of SBS doesn't really attract mi much.Worse still, looking at the long list of stuffs that i have to bring for the camp, i bcum more sianz than ever. At least, for the halls FOC, i can slp in mi hostel rm and thr's bed all dese. Want to go for the sports camp too, but 7 daes of continous vigorous sports games is so hiong. Besides that, if i'm gg for the SBS's, which is from 4th jul to 8jul, and Halls' from 18th jul to 23 jul, i won't b able to go for the sports' ( 11jul to 17jul), i nid a break from the work, orientation camps, and get ready for sch. So, in the end, cfm gg for the halls FOC, hmm..still wondering bout the SBS's one.hmm..

Can't believe i hav everythingy planned for the cuming wks and for the last official wk of mi wrk. Officially, my last dae is 6th jul, yet, if i'm clearing my leave(only 3 daes left), i would be leaving on lst jul. However, have decided to go for the removal of my wisdom tooth on nxt mon, hoping that the doc would give me 5 daes of mc, from nxt mon to fri, which means, i will hav one wk mc from work, n the unofficial last dae will b tomorrow. Yeah!! juz hope the doc will b so damn nice, though mi mum has been telling mi i muz b dreaming. Considering the fact that, the doc is so stingy and grant me 3-4 daes of mc onli, i onli nid to go back to wrk for the most 2 daes nxt wk, which is so much better than staying for daes in tong eng, and i just can't stand it ovr thr. Juz hope everythingy will go as planned. Of coz, i'm gg 2 miss all the fun colleagues i mit wrking at dis company, and nt forgetting the bitches and idiots hu made mi lst job so unforgettable and memorable. Shall leave all the thanks and mushy words to the last dae of wrk.

Thanks so much janice for lending mi her creative discount card. Shall get my mp3 player nxt wk, since thr's creative roadshow at orchard cineleisure on 1st jul to 3rd jul. hmm. still considering b/w creative Muvo TX FM (1GB) and Muvo V200 (1GB), after all the comments from fellow colleagues and IT experts.

stopid guy, made mi recall everythingy bout mi lst confession, the tears, the broken heart... Come to tink of it, i juz dun understand hw i have the courage to sae tt to a guy. If i were ever to do it again, i might nt have the courage anymore. Not anymore. It was the lst time, n shall be the last one too. It shall be the only time, once in my lifetime i did this, at least i experience it before though the aftermath had been so hurting and sad. Thank god, for we are gd buddies and frenz nw..

Reminiscing stops at |8:27 PM|

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

dese wks, everyone in the office has been unusually busy and hardworking, esp after the announcement of the stopid game by the zoom team ppl, encouraging ppl do to as mani apps as possible so as to win the 500 bucks robinson voucher. Worse still, the stopid company even boost on a chinese newspaper that, dey can give the customer the cards after 3 daes..which is lyk..wth..so impossible..nw, everyone is lyk lunching in and working OT, juz for the company's reputation. NO wonder, there's an increase in the no of ppl quitting the company end of dis month, which includes mi..hahah..can't wait to get out of that horrible, terrible, atrocious place..hahha

todae, it's the first time i felt so slack after i came ovr to tong eng, after i told mi colleagues, i'll b removing mi wisdom tooth nxt wk, and b taking mc for daes, and clearing mi wks for the nxt nxt cuming wk, suddenly, dey are so enthu to learn wat mi job scope is lyk, coz dey hav to cover mi work when i;m nt ard. In the end, dey juz take away all dose apps i supposed to chk n open, n i ended up doing typing, n sitting thr, stoning ard..hahah..however, in the late afternoon, mr ho and mr yeo have to go bakc to do processing and left only the few of us struggling. I just can't understand how the stopid dept ovr at tong eng works. They actuallie ask 2 women from other dept to cum ovr to help out for one to 2 wks..n wth, dey shld have get someone hu can take ovr mi job for months lor..at least, thr's no nid for one to teach n re-teach again..n i'm tired of doing so liao lor..i have been repeating for god-sake..dunno hw mani times..n tml, i was asked by the SO to teach another colleague..oh plz, y dun she tried teaching herself?she would noe y i hav been so unwillingly then..lyk wat i told kl tt time, dis colleague alawze tok to himself, in fact mumbling to himself, and even hum or sing to himself, it's so damn irritating and frustrating when one is busy. Though i won't deny the fact that he's helpful, he's juz weird. Sometimes, i reallie loathe tt horse-faced, she's so damn watever lor, everythingy oso ACT dunno..when ppl ask her do retrieval, she's nvr even bother to chk, then answer that she did not recieve. Worse still, todae, nick ask me bout the pend doc if we have received nt, then i asked him go find tt horse-faced, since i do nt have all the files wif mi. Guess wat, the horse-faced cum n ask mi, hw to find, when it's so simple, juz find the branch and the name of the applicant, in the end, i end up helping her find lor..wth..n when andrew passed her all the wrong docs tt are sent to poa, she juz passed back to me, sae dunno hu passed to poa ..n giev mi tt irritating face..wth..i was so pissed..nt as if i passed to them one lor..in return i express to her mi wtf face..everythingy oso pass to me..wat exactly does she noes lor? wiping the ass of the SO? Can;t b bothered, mi slacking for dese few daes, then will b free soon..away from all the bitches and the horse, and at the same time, can get away all the aging lines on mi forehead..working makes mi seems so much older..i wan 2 return back to lively, cheerful, young gal, hu enjoys gg 2 sch..miting all mi frenz..

decided to go for the halls freshman orientation on 18 jul to 23 jul..haven decide on the bio sci orientation which is on 4 jul to 8 jul..if sherrina gg, then i'll go, at least thr's someone to accompany mi..ahhah..wow..which means, teh whole of jul, i'll b damn busy wif all the orientations n stuffs..n there'll b limited time spending wif all mi frenz, from jcs and sec, and dose outside ones.hmm..will miss ya lotsa..sad..

Lifehouse - Walking away
The sun goes down as the city lights
Pave their way through the darkest night
Raindrops fall as an old man cries
Never thought to ever think twice

Of all he had
Of all he lost
A selfish life
And guess comes with the cost

Hey, remember me
I remember you walking away
Hey, remember me
I remember you walking away

The same old streets just a different name
Same old house just the family's changed
Pickett fence
The window stains
Freedom spells by a man in chains

Silence is all we have to give
And the memories of a life I wish we'd lived

Hey, remember me
I remember you walking away
Hey, remember me
I remember you walking away

From all that you made
That you lost
Or threw away
Traded in for a brand new life
But I can't
Can't let go
Can't turn around
Hold my head high and walk away

Hey, remember me
I remember you walking away
Hey, remember me
I remember you walking away

Reminiscing stops at |10:39 PM|

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

yesterdae after wrk, went for the body combat at fitness first for the lst time, wif janice, jessica and nafessah..it's so much fun and better than body step, at least we can catch up wif the demonstrator's speed. in addition, he's nt as sissy as the other guy, and he's so funny wif all the sound effect, and he's really one hu can motivate us to do the steps tgt and at the same time enjoying ourselves.Body combat is actuallie a mixture of kickboxing and taiji, and i felt so much lighter after the one hour class, though mi muscles at mi legs, arms, shoulders are nw aching. however, cum to tink of it, i shldn't have go for the klass esp, it's the first dae mi big auntie came. this morning, i felt the cramp for the first time, haven experience this feeling for a long time liao. Maybe, it's due to the kicking and the stretching last nite.

work has been usual todae, so busy, and so sickening. At least, the SO din cum and bother mi animore. Haiz, have to do a feedback form and hand it in to the HR to comment on the working environment. Seriously, i do enjoy wrking in dis company though there's displeasure, it's onli occasionally.

Lotsa nice movies cuming up, yet mi budget is tight. Haiz, finally decide to watch just 2 blockbluster, Initail D and War of the World. Oh ya, kl, when do u wan watch Initial D?haha.

Reminiscing stops at |5:53 PM|

Monday, June 20, 2005

Kelly Clarkson – behind these hazel eyes

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Reminiscing stops at |12:10 AM|

Sunday, June 19, 2005

went shopping wif kl todae..din buy anythingy except 2 dan browns books to add to mi collection of his books. Most of the time, we are walking aimlessly ard esp after the kfc meals

finally, decided to cum for the halls freshman orientation camp. can't wait for this dae to cum, to get to noe mi neighbours and get a taste of the hostel life b4 sch reallie starts.It's lyk once in a lifetime experience lor. Can't wait..

i did one stopid thingy again..i told win, he left a deep and gd lst impression in mi heart, and i lyk him LAST TIME. hahah..but we're toking bt our ex-crushes..so shld b okie. and i found out tt another gal in his klass lyk him again..but cannot help lar, he alwaze leaves a gd impression, and he's gd looking too..well, nt onli i m the onli one hu said so..hmm..other ppl in his sch feel so too..hahah..tt's gd..hahah

Lacuna Coil - Falling

I stand, looking my hand
I talk with these lines
That's not the answer
I cry and now I know
looking the sky
I search an answer

So free, free to be
I'm not another liar
I just want to be myself… myself

And now the beat inside of me
is a sort of a cold breeze and I've
never any feeling inside
around me…
I bring my body
carry it into another world
I know I live… but like a stone I'm falling down

Damned, looking into the sky
I can feel this rain
right now it's falling on me
fly, I just want to fly
life is all mine
some day I cry alone,
but I know I'm not the only one
I see that another day is gone
I don't wanna die…
Please be here when I'll arrive, don't die… please

Reminiscing stops at |1:21 AM|

Friday, June 17, 2005

din go to work todae, instead i went all the waze to the west to do compulsory medical chk-up at ntu wif sherrina and her sis, sabrina..after all, the medical chk-up is nt as complicated as other ppl tink..it's juz the normal chk-up, chking of heights and weights, eyes-sight, blood pressure, urine test, chking of the joints and chest x-ray..nuthun lyk breast exmination for galz nor undress fully naked in front of the nurse or doc..hhahah..

can't wait to noe which halls we'll b staying..and i still haven receive the letter regarding the bio sci / biomedical freshman orientation..haiz..tink most prob i'll b gg for the hall's orientation.(bl, u wan go too?) and the fac orientation (if someone pei mi go)..hahha..

i realise tt mi pimples start to burst out again..all thanx to the work environment at tong eng..i hate dis..!!!!!!!

dis is the song juz for u...

K-CI and Jojo - All my life..

I will never find another lover sweeter than you,
Sweeter than you
And I will never find another lover more precious than you
More precious than you
Girl you are close to me you're like my mother,
Close to me you're like my father,
Close to me you're like my sister,
Close to me you're like my brother
You are the only one my everything and for you this song I sing

And all my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

I said you're all that I'm thinking of.....baby

Said, I promise to never fall in love with a stranger,
You're all I'm thinking of, I praise the Lord above,
For sending me your love, I cherish every hug,
I really love you

And all my life, baby, baby, I've prayed for someone like you,
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you, baby
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do, love me

You're all that I ever known, when you smile, on my face, all I see is a glow.
You turned my life around, you picked me up when I was down,
You're all that I ever known, when you smile on your face all I see is a glow,
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I ever known, when you smile on your face all I see is a glow,
You picked me up when I was down and I hope that you feel the same way too,
Yes I pray that you do love me too

All my life, I've prayed for someone like you,
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

Reminiscing stops at |8:47 PM|

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

work has been usual..pamela is back..soon, thr would b a high turnover at our side..suraidah leaving dis cuming fri, janice leaving nxt wk..n i'll b leaving the nxt nxt wk..can't wait for this dae to cum..still i'll miss mani of mi colleagues hu hav brightened up mi dae and made mi lst job so unforgettable..will leave the thank you part to the last dae of work..

oh ya, ntu hav orientation after all..heard from mi fren business sch freshman orientation is on 4jul to 8jul..nt sure hw she noes lar..hahha..but i still dunno when's mine..hahah..n one nus guy called mi todae..ask mi if i wan go sci camp..weird lar..but in the end..i told him..i'll b gg ntu lar..

i feel lyk writing mi emotions here..though the person or person's frenz might b reading it..still i wan to sae tt..it's nice to c u todae, n have a nice tok wif u..u r so diff from the last time i seen u..totally amazed by it..i juz can't stop smiling then...

lifehouse - comoe back down
Staring right back in the face
A memory can't be erased
I know, because I tried
Start to feel the emptiness
And everything I'm gonna miss
I know, that I can't hide

All this time is passing by
I think it's time to just move on

When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through

Start to breathe and fake a smile
It's all the same after a while
I know, that you are tired
Carrying the ones you lost
A picture frame with all the thoughts
I know, you hold inside

I hope that you can find your way back
To the place where you belong

When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through

You're coming back down
You say you feel lost can I help you find it
When you come around
From time to time we all are blinded
You're coming back down
You don't have to tell me what you're feeling
I know what you're going through
I won't be the one that lets go of you

I think it's time to just move on

When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through

When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through

Reminiscing stops at |9:02 PM|

Friday, June 10, 2005

Start to get used to the work in tong eng..after all, the SO doesn't seem to bother bout mi animore, except for the first dae..mabe she's busy wif her wedding on 25th june?haha..nt sure she's gg to hav one tt dae nt..somemore, she hasn't been here dese daes, either mc or leave..so most of us have been slacking ard and sleeping ard all dese daes, only the horse-faced is stressed, coz she gonna take ovr the SO's job..but hu cares bout her then..
Todae, janice and i found out secrets bout the SO we used to b under at octagon..realise that, even in the past, she's such an asshole, heard she would scold anione she lyk, even someone higher rank than her was kana scolded and quit the following dae..all thanks to her strong back-up..her BF..hahahha..well..nt sure if still her BF nw..oor if it;'s EX-BF?ahhah..and tt guy happens to b ..hmm..the ji kou bei oky dey all said bout when they were still working here wif mi..hahah..it's so damn funnie lor..jzu imagine the two of them standing tgt?hhahah..
21 more days to the last dae of work..can't wait..and mon gg fitness first, to swim and body combat klass after work..so excited..hahah

can't wait for the uni to start soon..it seems so exciting...lst time staying away from home, living in the hostel, lst time gg to sch without wearing uniform and of course, wearing the white robe, doing experiments..still, i feel somehow, worried and scared..wat if i can't get used to the ntu environment? i'm alwaze so dependent on mi parents for everythingy..everydae, mi dad will automatically cut apples juz for mi after dinner, he'll even fill water for mi to bathe, and help mi kill mosquitoes when i complain mosquitoes disturbing mi at nite..n mi mum helping mi to wash all mi clothes and cook for mi..i gonna miss mi mum's delicious cooking and all those pampering mi parents gave mi..wonder if i can survive there? lstly, i dunno hw to cook..mabe juz instant noodles, and i dun even noe hw to break an egg..hahha..noe i'm super terrible..no wonder mi dad wanted mi to stay in hostel to learn to b independent..when i was so terrible to even suggest tt mi mum to go wif mi to china for the last 2 years tcm course..hahah..rmb the time when i went aust in sec 2 wif the choir members..i miss home so much tt..i call home everydae, sometimes twice a dae..toking to mi mum..haiz..will i b home sick in ntu's hostel, at least still can cum back every wkend..n it's so nice of mi dad when he suggests tt i bring all mi clothes home to let him iron every wkend..but i knew i mustn't lor..after all, he shld hav a rest in the wkend after the long wk of hard work..n mi dad gonna move mi bed mattresses, mi pillows, mi blankets and mi soft-toys thr for mi..hahah..coz he knew i won't get used to other ppl's mattress and it's so dirty..ahhah..coz mani hundreds and thousands of ppl have slept on it..yucks..hahah..n in the new environment, i gonna make new frenz..esp when i onli noe some frenz(nt reallie vv close wif them) gg to the same course as mi..haiz..wonder wat kinds of ppl and new frenz i will mit..haiz..

can't stand mi bro lately..JCT cuming and he's still slacking ard, doing his STopid scouts stuffs and toking to his gf..everytime when he pick up the fone..i hav the feeling to scream at him loud and ask him to SHUT UP..so that the person on the line can hear and put dwn the fone..noe i'm vv bad or watever..but WAT I'M DOING IS FOR HIS OWN GOOD...hahahah..

one big cockroach is so stopid enuff to crawl under mi chair..his fate going to end juz lyk tt..when it catches mi eyes..

One tree hill is juz so nice..mabe wana buy the lst season vcd..hahah..chad is damn cool and shuai..hate his new gf in the show, peter's sis..she has such bitchy looks..n watever..damn kan bu shuang her..hahah

Won't forget him..he has bcum someone whom i can reallie tok to and tell him all mi probs..he has bcum one of mi best best fren ever..the onli win i won';t forget ever..

Jesse Maccartney - Because u lived
Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it through every storm
What is life, what's the use if you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live

Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive

Because you live, I live, I live

Reminiscing stops at |10:07 PM|

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Work has been as tiring as ever..
Todae have lunch wif mi ex-colleagues and dey were telling mi that i look much older nw after i moved to tong eng..which means..the stress, the environment thr are making mi tired and i'm aging?wth..i dun wan to be so..i'd rather b mistaken as a young teenager and kana checked i/c for watching NC 16 movies than looking lyk 20 plus..juz 3 daes of work have reduced mi to such a pathetic state, everydae, i feel so tired, dragging miself out of bed, and every nite, i can't tahan and have to sleep early..i wonder wat would happen to mi if i'm going to work till end of july..i would bcum a lao cha po? haiz..however, thr's sth i'm looking forward to, mi official last date of is 6th july, but lucy allow mi to clear mi 3 days leave..n i'll b leaving on 1st july..23 daes more to go..counting dwn to tt special big dae for mi..

David has been asking mi if i wan go his party dis sat..keep pestering mi to go..haiz..part of mi wanted to..but still i dun feel lyk leh..i dun wan cum home drunk n kana scolded by mum, mabe if stayovr, then i might consider..hahha

A Walk to Remember - Learning to Breathe

Hello, good morning, how you do?
What makes your risin' sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new
So this is a way, that I say I need You
This is a way
This is a way

That I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that you and you alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

Hello, good morning, how you been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never, never thought that
I would fall like that
Never knew that I could hurt this bad

I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that you and you alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies
These abundant skies
Yeah, abundant skies, yeah

This is a way that I say I need You
This is a way that I say I love You
This is a way that I say I'm Yours
This is a way

This a the way that I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that you and you alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies
Yes I'm dying to breathe in
These abundant skies
These abundant skies, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
I'm learning to breathe
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies
Hello, good morning, how you doin'?

Reminiscing stops at |9:34 PM|

Monday, June 06, 2005

it's been a long time since i experienced emotional stress after all the schools and exams.
Todae is the lst dae we moved to tong eng..well..i dun consider "move" of coz, considering the fact that we still leave most of our thingys back in octagon, and going back to octagon as n when we lyk..At lst, e lst tot of leaving the SO, we'll have a better life..but it's nvr so..for there's a SO much worse than the bitch, in fact, totally demanding and had such a "gd" reputation that everyone knew her by her notorious name. Heard many ppl hu worked under her, quit after cannot tahan her bossiness..wth..and here i'm, wrking under her..the lst dae is alreadie terrible, i wonder hw will i b able to survive daes after..i hav been vv tolerance liao..in fact, it seems lyk she's testing mi EQ..wtf..i can't tahan liao..i reallie felt lyk crying too..i feel so terrible thr, in the same building as her..cum to tink of it..i rather b back in octagon wif the octagon's bitch, after all, she's nt as bad as this one..

Have decided to quit mi job earlier..nt gg to care bout the bonus all dese liao..One reason is that, mi contract actuallie end on 24th July, juz one dae b4 the sch open for ntu..i definitely nid a break, esp working under such a devil..and i have to get ready, moving into hostel, orientation all dese..Partly, it's oso coz i dun tink i can tolerate tt bitch for so long..decided to leave end of june, but i gt to give them one month notice..so tml i b gg to dicuss wif lucy(new boss) if she can let mi off on end of june..else, i can tahan for another wk..till 7 june..haiz..

i began to suspect mi feelings for u..is it juz a normal crush? i seem to lyk u lesser and lesser..haiz..

oh ya..kl and ts..sat? parkway?mit after or b4 lunch?

Reminiscing stops at |8:15 PM|

Saturday, June 04, 2005

Def Leppard - When love and hate collides

You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind
Instead of slamming down the phone girl, for the hundredth time
I got your number on my wall, but I ain't gonna make that call
When divided we stand baby, united we fall

Got the time got a chance gonna make it
Got my hands on your heart gonna take it
All I know I can't fight this flame
You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby, time after time

Without you
One night alone Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone
Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide

I don't wanna fight no more, I don't know what we're fighting for
When we treat each other baby, like an act of war
I could tell a million lies and it would come as no surprise
When the truth is like a stranger, hits you right between the eyes

There's a time and a place and a reason
And I know I got a love to believe in
All I know got to win this time

[Repeat Chorus]

[SOLO]

You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby...Crazy...Crazy

Without you
One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone
Without you
One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
If you have a heart at all
Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide

Reminiscing stops at |1:03 AM|

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

for once..i finalllie made mi decision..i'm gg ntu for sure..gg stay in hostel wif bl as mi rm mates..i feel so happy..so delighted..in fact, i juz can't wait for sch to start soon..

work has been getting more n more disappointing..everyone in the office has been mentioning bout other job opportunitties..can't wait to quit or leave ani sooner..haiz..

Kelly Clarkson - Gone
What you see's not what you get
With you there's just no measurement
No way to tell what's real from what isn't there
Your eyes they sparkle
That's all changed into lies that drop like acid rain
You washed away the best of me
You don't care

You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You're wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone

Sometimes shattered
Never open
Nothing matters
When you're broken
That was me whenever I was with you
Always ending
Always over
Back and forth, up and down like a rollercoaster
I am breaking
That habit
Today

You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You're wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone

There is nothing you can say
Sorry doesn't cut it, babe
Take the hint and walk away
'Cause I'm gone
Doesn't matter what you do
It's what you did that's hurting you
All I needed was the truth
Now I'm gone

What you see's not what you get
What you see's not what you get

You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You're wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone
I'm already gone
Oh, I'm already gone, gone, gone, gone
Already gone
I'm gone

Reminiscing stops at |10:58 PM|