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Wednesday, August 31, 2005

life in uni is so hectic..i still can't reallie adapt to the life here..studies, com stuffs, hall life..etc.. suddenly feel so sick of everythingy..so sick of mi life..

did i mention tt i went for interview last wk and was selected as the sports sec for mi sch management com, which gives mi enuff pts to stay in hall nxt yr..but being a sports sec is so so damn busy that nt onli i have to go dwn for every sports events in sch, even when thr's trning, i have to b dwn too..nw i wonder if i will still b able to go home every wkend liao..
Had mi lst official meeting wif the com todae. Uni com is so so politics la..i feel so weird, it's lyk thr r clinques within the com lo..and it's so obvious tt one grp dun lyk the other from their expression, their actions and their tones..i feel so sick lo..seeing all dese, after all, last time in jc lib com..i nvr c these kinds of thingys one lo..even though we r nt close la..but it's nvr so so politics la..haiz..to make thingys worse, thr r onli 3 year one in the com..the rest are year 2 and 3 la..haiz..

i'm so sick of him liao..he juz take mi for granted which is so unlike last time lo..i miss the way he pampered mi..haiz..i tink i start to hate him liao..his actions and watever la..haiz..but whenever, i received his mesg or c him..i can't bring miself to hate him..haiz..mabe tt wat love is and ..haiz..

start to settle dwn and do mi sch work and some revision of past lect notes..haiz..but i still feel so so unprepared..mani stuffs i feel i still dunno..haiz..

have a tok wif one of mi neighbour, py..we mentioned bout we'll still gg b neighbours nxt yr..the noisy and fun group of neighbours..haiz..but true la..if i move to other blks or other floors, i'll miss this bunch of neighbours hu is so damn noisy and fun and of coz, nice..and friendly..and caring too..worse still, if i ever move to other halls to join mi frenz, i'll miss mi hall...definitely..all mi gd frenz, mi new frenz, the shopping to jp..the dinner tgt at can 14..mi foc orientation n mi everydae memories, etc..i'll miss them alot..haiz..

oh ya, n i went to pierce mi ears liao..haiz..ts, when's ur turn?hahha

i juz love dis song..haiz..

Justin Timberlake's Never Again

Would have given up my life for you
Guess it's true what they say about love
It's blind
Girl, you lied straight to my face
Looking in my eyes
And I believed you 'cause I loved you more than life
And all you had to do
Was apologize

You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me, again

No, no, no, no, no, no

Sadness has me at the end of the line
Helpless watched you break this heart of mine
And loneliness only wants you back here with me
Common sense knows that you're not good enough for me
And all you had to do
Was apologize, and mean it

But you didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me

I wish like hell I could go back in time
Maybe then I could see how
Forgiveness says that I should give you one more try
But it's too late, it's over now

You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me

AgainAgain, yeah, yeah
Again, again, again, yeah, yeah, yeah
Never get to love me

Reminiscing stops at |8:47 PM|

Sunday, August 21, 2005

we had dnd on fri nite..hmm..okie..it was quite fun and the food r nt so bad la..heard it was much better than last yr..n most of us are too busy toking, watching performances and taking pics...it was an experience for mi of coz, esp tt i did nt went for the grad nite last yr nor the prom nite the previous yr..and sy and jl from our og won the ms personality and hall king repectively..yeah..nw we have 2 hall kings in our grp..jl and tk(ogl hu won last yr)..after tt, we planned to go clubbing but the dnd ended later than expected..past 12 lo..and by the time we went to the club, it'll b one sth lo..and most of the ppl are too hungry liao..so we went lao pa sat for supper instead..until 3 plus in the morning then i reached home..tiring..and i slept the whole of sat dae..haiz..

gg back hall in late afternoon todae instead..miting ernest to have dinner and watch the maid tgt..watching nite horror movie la..and after tt i have to go back to mi rm and slp alone..coz bl will onli b back on tue..sianz..

it'll b another busy wk again..wed, og jogging and supper, fri inter-blk netball game and bio quiz..haiz..haiz...

gg back to do mi wrk liao..will update u all nxt time..

Reminiscing stops at |12:09 AM|

Friday, August 19, 2005

it's been almost a wk..finallie settling dwn after so long, did manage to read thru some of mi notes ever since the sch starts..ya..but nt all la..still trying as hard as possible..to adjust to the hectic life in hall..to have all the fun, and of coz the most impt one is to study..

juz have the lst supper wif mi neighbours, py, bernard, celine, jeremy and shawn..2 of the guys did the cooking and celine and shawn did the washing..i was warned to wash the pots and plates and untensils nxt time..hahaha..feel so full nw..and feel lyk i'm getting fat, staying in the hall..supper almost everydae..wow..hahha

but at least, yesterdae i went running wif erienne, ran ard the halls from hall 8 to hall 15 and we even ran past by hall 2 and hall 6, ran 30mins continuously w/o stopping..yeah!!mi stamina still thr, dun feel vv tired after tt at all..yeah!!gg run more in future..and to train for nxt fri's inter-block netball game..hahha
After the run, we went to join the house supper at our hall, and thr's house rep election too..i din go for it la..dun feel lyk after all..cum to tink of it..staying in the hall nxt yr nt, doesn't matter to mi animore..i juz dun wan pressurise miself to get as much pts as possible juz to stay in hall..if thr's enuff pts, then gd lo..nxt yr can cont staying..if nt, then i'll juz travel to and fro lo..but i'll definitely miss all the frenz and activities we had in the hall..all the fun..haiz..

tml evening, thr's dnd..haiz..dunno y..feel quite sianz bout it lo..hmm..mabe coz tot of wat to do wif mi hair all dese give mi a headache la..haiz..heard tt after tt, either the whole og or the whole hall gg clubbing..hmm..dunno la..dunno wan to go nt leh..coz still have to bring clothes to change..hahah..

we're nt as close as it starts out liao..though everydae we still sms, or tok on msn..the frequency has reduced greatly la..mabe coz we're tired of such life liao..but it's gd to have such a nice fren lyk u..

Reminiscing stops at |1:32 AM|

Saturday, August 13, 2005

dis fri i stayed back in hall again..haiz..coz the last lect which is the make-up econ lect(yucks)..end ard 6.30..dun feel lyk travelling all the waze back after tt..coz too tired liao..and the dist is lyk so damn long, by the time i reach home, it's 8pluz liao lo..hai.z.

all mi neighbours have gone home, the hall seems exceptionally quiet compared to the other daes..haiz..gd environment to study nw..but..haiz..can't conc leh..esp on a fri nite..hahah..

juz came back from ernest's rm..went thr 2 watch his last yr's bdae video..which is so damn disgusting..he was stripped and milk, paint,washing powder were all poured ovr him..hahah..wonder hw this yr, the guyz, his clinque, gg to torture him..hahha..btw, it's a tradition to torture guyz on their bdae in our hall..esp after 12am..the scene can b vv entertaining but torturous for the guy la..hahha..oh ya, then after tt, we watched kong fu dvd ..instead of a lot lyk love(at lst, wan to watch dis..but his dvd seem to hav a prob)..

gg to trim mi hair dis wkend..change of hairdresser and gonna change the hairstyle too..

haiz..nxt fri, gonna b union dae for sch..halfdae for all of us..haiz..but it's oso mi hall DnD..haven get mi dress yet..damn!!!!

Reminiscing stops at |1:43 AM|

Friday, August 12, 2005

looking at the time nw..it's 2 plus in the morning..feel so damn tired after a game of og's captain's ball in the middle of the nite..weird rite?hahha..and it's so fun lo, in fact sort of practice for the inter-block netball game in 2 wks time..haiz..no trning and we're gg 2 play for it liao..siao..

can't wait for nxt wk's activities..the seniors suggest running to yunnan's garden and eat supper after tt..and dis time erienne and i gonna b the organisers again..sianz..y us again?haiz..

so far, sch is okie..lect is okie..except for the biochem lecturer, can't stand him..his voice is so nice to put mi 2 slp..so much lyk lullably..hahha..but i juz hate tutorials..esp, econ tutorial..it sucks la..but when did i ever lyk econ tut b4..hahah.econ tutorials, nid lotsa klass participation coz 10% of the grade depends on klass participation..whereas for the sci subj, everyone was slacking in klass coz the klass participation will nt affect the grade at all..whew...

we are back to normal liao..

tired..gg slp liao..tml gt lects onli.hengz..but gt econ make-up lect at 530 to 730..damn..on a fri nite? when i can go home early?wth..

Reminiscing stops at |2:21 AM|

Monday, August 08, 2005

i dunno wat to sae..i juz feel so hurt.haven feel tt for so long since after win's thingy...he and his stopid excuses..he and his stopid theories..avoidance is no excuse lo..no way will it remove ani scandals..no way..

i have sunk too deep..though others have told mi bad thingys bout u..yet i choose to ignore and go wif mi feelings..ur care and concern juz touch mi heart..

dunno if u are ham or we are juz frenz..but looking at the situation nw..will we ever b frenz again? ever so crappy again?haiz..

dunno hw 2 face u ..dunno hw to nw..y would we land up in such awkward situation..

this song juz right for the 2 of us..

Jesse Maccartney - Why don't you kiss her

We're the best of friends
And we share our secrets
She knows everything that is on my mind
But lately somethings changed
As I lie awake in my bed
A voice here inside my head
Softly says

Why don't you kiss her
Why don't you tell her
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
Cuz she'll never know
If you never show
The way u feel inside

Oh im so afraid to make that first move
Just a touch and we
Could cross the line
And everytime she's near
I wanna never let her go
Confess to her what my heart knows
Hold her close

Why don't you kiss her
Why don't you tell her
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
Cuz she'll never know
If you never show
The way u feel inside

What would she say
I wonder would she just turn away
Or would she promise me
That she's here to stay
It hurts me to wait
I keep asking myself

Why don't you kiss her
Why don't you tell her
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
Cuz she'll never know
If you never show
The way u feel inside

Why don't you kiss her (tell her you love her)
Why don't u tell her (tell her you need her)
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
Cuz she'll never know
If you never show
The way you feel inside...

Reminiscing stops at |9:41 PM|

Friday, August 05, 2005

wow..life in my hall is definitely exciting..everydae is so happening..almost everyone is lyk slping at 3 or 4 am, and waking up at earliest 7am for lessons..omg..and wat's more exciting is the time after 12, when ppl starts 2 gather in each others' rm, and gossip. In fact, the juciest gossip is when after 12 or 2..oohh..juz last nite, i went to mi senior's rm to gossip until lyk 4 am then return back to mi rm to slp..

during daes and nites, juz walk past mi hall, anione can hear the loud music, or strumming of the guitar, the shoutings and conversations from the top storey to the basement, the seniors and juniors mixing ard at the corridoor, og suppers, movies, gatherings at tv lounge watching superstars..and mani others..

hall's life is definitely fun but..hard to conc on studies la..juz the laptop, is a gd distraction liao..and all the happenings outside ur rms..hmm..wonder when i'll reallie settle dwn and take a gd look at mi big, heavy textbooks..

Reminiscing stops at |1:44 AM|

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

daes in ntu have been so sianz..and nw i'm sick here..sore throat and slight flu..
todae, i even woke up wif a headache..haiz..too much thingys to tink bout liao..sianz..

summary of wat happen for the past wk..

thurs, sch as usual. Except that, we have supper todae, our lst supper..yeah!!roti prata and chivas at the pantry..hhaha..weird combination rite?hmm..but chivas is damn strong la..esp it's silver one..nt black one..and er is back from aust..finallie, chat wif him for long time.

fri, stay back in the hall again..coz sat hav lesson.Luckily, yin jie came ovr to mi hall and pei mi..and we have free supper for the 2nd consecutive dae..fried chicken wings wif rice wine added to it..thanks to er hu drove all the way to hall to deliver to us..hahha..shit..staying in hall gg 2 get mi fat liao..

sat, went home..finallie after one wk away from mi dearest home..

sun, og steamboat dinner at zheng fa restaurant..though it's onli a small no..we enjoy ourselves a lot, catching up wif one another..after tt, we sat taxis back to the hall..and i was approached by the hall jcrc (hall com) ppl if i wanted to join the hall jcrc dis yr, as nomination starts dis cuming wed..and mi neighbours keep suaning mi la..ask mi go for the welfare sec as i have the chi xiang face..mad la..then couldn't decide b/w welfare or social sec..hmm..but tink i might forgo dis opportunity eventually, as being in the jcrc, i muz b super committed to the hall and almost everydae i muz stay in hall, even sat and sun and sch hols..thr'll b no tme for frenz and family and loved ones..no wonder er was lyk persuading mi to tink twice as he was offered the secretary position in the com..but he rejected as he felt he did nt have the time to commit to the hall..tink i would join the sub com instead..hmm..join 2 sub coms lo..at least it's nt as stress and committed and more slack ba..tink tonite, i'll reflect to weihuang, the jcrc sports sec bout mi decision..and the hall activities ba..shit..er was telling mi tt i will b pulled to join all the inter-hall sports competition end of the month..wth..coz he was forced to do so last yr, as there was insufficient sports players here..for our hall is the new hall..mabe, hopefully, i will get enuff pts 2 cont staying..if nt..haiz..then i'll move out then..but will miss the independant mi..though mi neighbour, the galz la.,.are lyk so dao ones..at least the guys neighbours are nt..but some of them lyk 2 smoke at the corridor..haiz..

mon, fall sick..slp at unusually weird time at 8 pm..coz feel damn tired..woke up wif slight flu and sore throat..force miself to drink lotsa water and honey, and er cum to mi rm to pass mi medicine..so nice of him..

todae, tue..feeling much better..yet headache in the morning..coz too mani thingys to tink bout liao..lstly, it's er..dunno wat's he tinking oso..2nd is the jcrc thingy..but at least i made up mi mind liao..i'm nt gg for it..after all, instead gg for subcom.., 3rdly is the studies la..so much thingys dun understand..haiz..wat can i do..feel reallie sick..cum back hall early, eat lunch wif er..hmm..gg slp soon..so leta can go for evening lesson..ECON..yucks..

Reminiscing stops at |2:25 PM|