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Wednesday, January 25, 2006
dese few daes, hav been bad daes for mi, ever since tt disgusting clarification turned out to be. well, i realised tt i hav bcum quieter, n i dun find ani jokes funnie animore..nt animore..nt luffing fr the bottom of mi heart..juz faking of luffs and smiles is so tiring..nt sure wat had reallie happened to me..isit juz lethargic, pms or bad mood? mabe tt's hw life is as one grows up..getting more hypocratic as ever..
mon nite was spent celebrating lena's bdae..wif lena of coz, junjie, binlee, sabrina, winnie n mi..we had a fun time, cooking our own mee suan for dinner, and playing wif the choco cake..n mi left cheeks was smashed wif choco frudge by lena..so innocent..i dint do anythingy to her lo..hahah..and poor lena had to bathe 4 times a dae tt dae..ahah
yesterdae nite was hall steamboat at marina bay..many hall ppl came for this event..nt bad, the turnout is better than i've expected, bout 100 ppl went..and i sat wif lena,jj,wt,joanna,step, n fel..had a fun time wif them of coz..but..haiz..sth juz spoil everythingy....y shld i care then..watever..cant b bothered..i'm alreadie 心灰意冷..n we played bingo game of coz..100 ppl playing bingo..unbelivable..then the return trip was fun wif lena crapping ard wif charles, jason n wh..while wt n jj busy taking video, and jonna and i luffing uncontrollably..mabe dis is lyk one of the few happy daes i hav since last wkend..hahah..
sun..edwin gave mi a surprise call..hahaha..wishing mi happy belated bdae coz he couldnt contact mi on mi bdae as he was in camp..so swt of him of coz..hahah..n we hav a long tok..and i did confess to him bout the broken heart..i muz sae hes reallie one of the nicest guy frenz i ever hav..i wish him all the best then..
cant wait for cny to cum..i wana get so rest..tired..and of coz more hongbaos..hahah
okie..back to doing hw..else tonite hav 2 go dwn for isrg..sianz..
Reminiscing stops at |1:55 PM|
Monday, January 23, 2006
din go home for the wkend..but parents came ovr and passed mi some of mi stuffs..so nice of them..
went out wif nuts yesterdae..so long din mit up wif u all liao..miss ya all..
thr'll b some explicit content below:
so damn bloody pissed.wif a bastard..hes nt even worth being called a bastard lo..fuck la..watever he said reallie anger mi,wats ur fucking prob, playing ard wif mi? then u better look out..i curse u wif all mi hatred..even nxt time when u c mi, i'll b acting friendly n normal to u..y shld i treat u so gd after all tt u hav done n said? y shld i show u mi true feelings? hu r u to mi nw? u r nuthun!!! so juz fuck off n get out of mi life...
Reminiscing stops at |12:21 AM|
Sunday, January 22, 2006
results: nuthun gg on b/w 2 of us..
worst heartbreak ever
Reminiscing stops at |12:03 AM|
Saturday, January 21, 2006
for the cuming wks gg to b extremely busy for mi..trying to catch up wif mi wrk, at the same time thr's so so much activities, esp the isrg starting nxt tue..haiz..nid a break soon..
early sat morning, when everyone is slping comfortably at home, or off to sentosa for hall beach dae..i went back to sch for lab..haiz..so pathetic..
din go home dis wkend coz wana stay in hall to finish up all mi wrk..n travelling takes lotsa time..
din go sentosa for the beach dae..haiz..coz of lab and it'll b kinda rushed for mi to travel dwn to sentosa n leta to aljunied to mit the nut pack..coz celebrating ql's,cel's and mi bdae..yeah..
last nite came back late..12am..coz went out wif ernest to watch geisha..nice one...and the young chiyo is juz so beautiful..i love her blue eyes..so mesmersing..haha
.i dunno bout it..i juz feel weird..the feelings seem so diff..haiz..u seem so tired n wana give up..well..after dragging for so long, i was tired too..extreme tired..y r we hurting each other making each other suffer..sometimes,i feel tt we shld clarify thingys out, after all, whether its gd or bad, we ought to accept facts.tonite seems to b a gd time 2 clarify stuffs out, we ought to let each other noes hw we feel for each other..haiz..but will b tell the truth or wld u cont to hide in the bottom of ur heart..i'm tired..i dun wan 2 feel pain or hurt animore..plz..tonite let mi hav the strength and courage to clarify thingys out wif u..watever the outcome, we juz hav 2 accept it..and plz tell the truth..i'm tired..
mahjong last nite till 3am..n we played onli half the game..n i won twice..yeah..
some pics took on mi bdae..some of mi hall mates celebrate wif mi on sun..
its was half an hr b4 the end of mi bdae..all seems so sleepy..
the organisers n the bdae gal
mi and mi neighbour cum personal psychologist..py
rommie,bl and i
winnie n i
sabrina n i
jun jie n i
crazy lena, jon n i..galz trying to touch jon's big round stomach..hahhaa
Reminiscing stops at |4:27 PM|
Thursday, January 19, 2006
sometimes i juz dun understand some ppl at all, sometimes dey seem so abnormal..
winning or losing in a competition doesnt matter, wat matter most is the experience u gain and the process and the bonding u gain in team games..tt's y i dun understand y ppl making a big fuss on losing ani comp..whr's the sportsmanship we used to tok bout? n if u dun feel gd bout losing, do keep it to urself and stop showing out to others..or juz dun compete at all..wtf..n everyone deserves to win,doesnt mean u train hard, other competitors dun train as hard as u..so plz, b more rational at times..
the languages of love: 1) touch, 2) gifts 3)words of affirmation 4) quality time 5) acts of service
(adapt from esther)
which one u prefer?choose 2 out of 5:
i chose touch and quality time..hugging is a sign of love..n seriously, i love hugging..dunno y..i feel so comfortable and safe when doing so..n onli thru spending time wif ur loved ones, then u feel happy and noe them much much better..
i'm nt sure if i'm having pms lately or i'm juz too sensitive..suddenly, i'm so sick of hall life..y? i lyk being independent nw..but the prob is..y cant i hav some privacy to miself? y ppl tink i'm onz, when i'm nt at all..doesnt mean u ppl onz, others hav 2 b lyk u all..we all hav lotsa stuffs to do, tutorials, sch com stuffs,etc..nt everyone is as free as ya all..fooling ard, making damn noise etc..if ya all still treat mi as frenz lyk we used to b, watching movies, gossiping,eating supper tgt..plz do nt interfere mi life nor tell mi wat 2 do when i didnt wan to, or show no sights of wanting to do it..else juz leave mi alone n treat mi as neighbour..
been so busy lately, nxt wk start of the isrg..gonna hav lotsa stuffs to do..
haiz, still dunno wan 2 ask u nt..i dunno..seriously, i dunno wat 2 do at all..mabe both of us r juz scared..haiz..it wont b gg aniwaze if this cont..mabe i shld try n bring it up rather than both of us avoiding it..
Reminiscing stops at |12:58 AM|
Monday, January 16, 2006
rushing tutorials nw, decide to take a break fr it while eating one litre of yogurt..jon help mi buy..tiring..
bdae celebrations are okie..
sat - wif lu dey all
sat nite - surprise
sun - went shopping wif cs
sun nite - celebrate wif the neighbours
cum to tink of it, nt sure if i shld ask him bout it..wat he's tinking all dese..i scared..i fear..i juz dunno hw shld i put it dwn in words or face him if i did..mabe i juz wldnt wan 2 spoil the beauty of the memory n wana preserve it entirely.
life sucks..wif so much thingys 2 b troubled bout..i hate it..n mi studies is getting heavier..argh..
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Add something that is true about you.
Here we go..
01. I miss somebody right now02. I don't watch much TV these days (stay in hall ma..)
03. I love olives
04. I own lots of books
05. I am a walking disaster in the kitchen
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
08. I've tried marijuana
09. I've watched porn movies
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy13. I love ice cream (!!!!!)14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
15. I curse sometimes16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year17. I have a hobby
18. I've been told I have a nice smile
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
20. I'm partially smart
21. I've never broken someone's bones
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I'm paranoid at times25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free26. I need money right now
27. I love sushi
28. I talk really, really fast
29. I have fresh breath in the morning
30. I have semi-long hair31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.34. I am sick right now
35. I have a twin
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the pas
37. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look sometimes
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
40. I know how to cornrow
41. I am usually pessimistic42. I have a lot of mood swings43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Britney Spears is pretty
45. Slept with a Suitemate
46. I have a hidden talent
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I have a lot of friends49. I am currently single50. I have pecked someone of the same sex
51. I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants
53. I love to shop54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I'm bourgieand have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
57. I'm obsessed with my blog58. I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
59. I'm a pretty good dancer
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
62. I have a cell phone63. I believe in God
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love drama67. I have never been in a real relationship before
68. I've rejected someone before
69.
I currently have a crush/like someone70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have children in the future72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I've called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I'm not allergic to anything
77. I have a lot to learn78. I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie
80. I am shy around the opposite sex
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved83. I have tried alcohol or drugs before84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past85. I own the "South Park" movie
86. I have avoided assignments at work to be on Xanga or Livejournal
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum
88. I enjoy some country music
89. I would die for my best friends
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
93. I always learn things the hard way
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story"
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I have dated a close friend's ex
99. I like surveys
100. I am happy at this moment
101. I'm obsessed with guys
102. I am bi
103. Democrat
104. Conservative Republican
105. I am punk rockish
106. I am preppy
107.
I go for older guys/girls, not younger108. I study for tests most of the time109. I tie my shoelaces differently to anyone I've ever met
110. I can work on a car
111. I love my job
112. I am comfortable with who I am right now
113. I have more than just my ears pierced
114. I walk barefoot wherever I can
115. I have jumped off a bridge
116. I love sea turtles
117. I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup
118. I believe in prophetic dreams
119. I plan on achieving a major goal/dream120. I am proficient on a musical instrument
121. I worked at a McDonald's restaurant1
22. I hate office jobs
123. I love sci-fi movies
124. I've never been in love
125. I think water rules
126. I go to college out of state
127. I am adopted
128. I like sassage
129. I am a pyro
130. I love the Red Sox
131. I have thrown up from crying too much
132. I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved133. I love kisses
134. I fall for the worst people freakin bastards...
135. I am a big procastinator
136. I still miss an ex
137. I can use chopsticks138. I am/have been obsessed with a certain actor(s)/actress(es)
139. I love hugs
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Sunday, January 15, 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!
its 1 plus in the morning, couldnt slp at all.still in shock.cant believe wat happen juz one hr ago..ernest drove all the waze to mi hse here, mit mi at the deck n wish mi happy b'dae..n pass mi bdae prez..omg..he said wan 2 b the lst one 2 pass mi the prez n wish mi happy bdae..omg..sweetened by it..n cant believe he actuallie drove all the waze to the east juz for dis....seriously i dunno wat 2 sae..totally touched..hahaha..
celebrate mi bdae yesterdae wif lu dey all at sentosa..hav 2 fun time..lucky din rain..hahah..
Reminiscing stops at |1:10 AM|
Saturday, January 14, 2006
Kindness
Kindness is most important in a boyfriend/girlfriend. You want someone who will go through everything with you - the best moments and the worst, and all of those other moments in between. You love to be able to say anything to your partner, and have them say anything to you. You are able to be extremely close with your partner for that reason.
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Reminiscing stops at |12:13 AM|
Friday, January 13, 2006
its yet almost the end of another wk..lstly, apologise for the long post again, coz din reallie hav time 2 update this pathetic blog, oso, sorrie tt i did nt reply ani of ur mesg on msn as i was reallie "away" or "busy" wif mi wrk and activities..
so mani thingys happen within dis wk, meetings, sch wrks, gossipings, watching uni pegeant...
one of e main events which supposedly to happen but din..haiz..its py's bdae which was one month ago. The galz did the planning and getting the disgusting ingredients while the guys r supposed 2 carried out the sabo. We wanted to gif him a bdae surprise one month after, esp since he manage to escape the sabo on his bdae..so on tue nite, the galz mainly, celine,wt,steph,fel n i cramped into susan's rm and started planning for this special event, tinking of the various disgusting stuffs lyk expired for one yr tao sa pia,expired eggs, flour, etc..the event was supposed 2 b carried on thurs, but so mani unfortunate stuffs happened, jereme lost his wallet, we all went 2 watch the uni pegeant till vv late, and the guys r nt free on tt dae,actuallie juz jeff..ha. so we're planning one of the daes nxt wk might b a gd time for it 2 b carried out after discussing wif ber n shaun
tue was public hols, but din go back home. instead, went out wif ts, kl n eleen at marina sq n suntec. then rushed back hall for gl meeting, as usual it dragged till 10 plus..i hate meetings tt dragged..n all gls hav 2 go for the beach dae which is on 21st..of coz, i cannot go..gt lab in the morning and miting up wif the nuts on tt dae too..n i dun wan go thr n gt sabo, coz jon mentioned tt dey(the guys neighbours) b giving mi one big "prez"..tts vv nice of them, of coz, i juz hope dey wont sabo mi until too jialet..
the nxt dae after sch, went jp watch movie wif ts,kl,ql n bl. we finallie manage to catch narnia.eh, nt bad..n peter was cute..haha
then rushed back hall to finish up mi tcm hw: translation from ancient chinese to modern chinese..haiz
after so mani lect on tcm, spending 12 hrs a wk on it, i realised its nt so boring after all, so mani interesting thingy in fact. So far, we've been learning the morals of chinese doc and the anicent chinese lang of coz..its been e 2nd wk, 5 more wks b4 the end of mi dis ancient chinese medicine modules.
oh ya, did i mention finallie someone saes tt i can cook..usually, its either py or ber hu did the cooking for supper. on mon, both py n i were hungry n he asked mi 2 cook, coz he was too lazy n busy playing his com games. i was damn surprise when he said tt, coz dey nvr trust mi cooking, dey believe i cant cook at all..wth..but when he tried mi cooking, he said nt bad..yeah!!!!
dunno wan 2 go out wif him nt..haiz..scared of getting hurt again..and its against my resolution for 2006. bl was telling mi, i shld decide wat 2 do, as long as i'm happy bout it..seriously i oso dunno. i've been so disappointed wif him for taking me for granted. an i lectured him.he was kinda shocked though..but hu cares..he onli cares bout himself he nvr cares bout hw i feel.but cum to tink of it, i care..part of mi wan 2 accept his invitation but whenever i tot of hw he hurt mi last time, hw he treated mi so much for granted, anger juz overwhelmed mi, even the little swt thingy he said cant dissolve the anger. even nw miself dun understand hw i feel..but one thingy i noe for dis sem, i've bcum a tough gal, will nt tear for him again..
thanks ser,yj n esther for the early prez and wjw for rmbing mi bdae after so so long..hahah..ns muz b too bo liao for u as u suddenly rmb all our bdaes...
cant wait for tml, gg out wif lu dey all, n sun wif cs..after tt nt sure gg out wif him nt..haiz..
Pics taken dis wk:
me doing mi wrk, very busy
serene n i..in mi hall, waiting for marketing lect
Reminiscing stops at |9:58 PM|
Saturday, January 07, 2006
it's juz the lst wk of sch, yet life is already so hectic, wif so much thingys happening..
as mentioned in the last post, tcm lect start dis sem, and i hav already attended 12hrs of tcm lessons within dis wk. sadly to sae, i still can't get the grist of it, in fact, i managed to understand wat the lecturer was toking after her interpretation, but the application of it is juz hard. haiz..worse still, wif onli about 60 ppl in the klass or mabe the whole cohort, everyone suddenly seems so competitive. i agree wif serene on dis..everyone is lyk..eh..u noe..the competition we faced throughout our pri, sec n jc sch life,exam time..it's juz the lst wk of sch, n we're alreadie experiencing it.
wif juz 60 of us studying dis course, mani ppl tot we shld able to bond and mixed well..yet, it does nt seem so. besides, the competitve enviroment, everyone is lyk so dao, alwaze stay within their jc clinques. Maybe, the situation is much better compared to the sem..but..haiz..u noe wat i mean..lyk wat mi neighbour, sabrina said, its hard to get true close frenz in uni, compared to jc or sec, when we r so pure and innocent..
was irritated wif py juz nw, he accused mi of nt asking his permission to lend the mahjong set and table.wth..i din even play lo..its his roomie hu agrees to lend to the galz neighbours and its roomie hu did nt even ask him..no wonder thurs nite, he seems so bu shuan when he tok 2 mi..wth..coz he tot i was playing wif the galz, so i did nt ask him for the stuffs..n nw i hav 2 ensure tt the thingys r returned back to his rm tml nite..wth..though hes considered the gd-tempered one, n he added lotsa "haha" in his msn msg, i could still sense the diff and tt he was unhappy..wth.. n i was upset too...
lst marketing lect on thurs, so far nt as bad as i tot..its seems so much interesting than econs, but the thingy is tt, the lect is held tgt wif the core acc n biz ppl, thus thr's a super big group, filling up the whole of MLT and its so so noisy and distracting..rite bl? haiz..i hate noisy lect..no wonder i did nt attend ani of mi econ lect last sem..
lily came to ntu on thurs, she seems to visit all the halls rite?hahah..n my hall is her last visit b4 she left ntu, so long din c her liao, and she came wif michelle, candy and cemin..and we took lotsa pics. gal, send mi the pics leh, or post on ur blog, then i go take..hahahah
lst meeting wif the main com held yesterdae, as usual it dragged on for 2 hours, boring, mentally tiring meeting..so much things to do. ISRG cuming up, and SBS day. and i gt mi main com polo tee, designed by sher..and i gt back almost 30 bucks for teaching at the kids during the hols, for the main com cancavssing after the deduction..hmm..nt bad la..at least manage to earn some easy $$ (tot i won't even gt a cent since its canvassing)..haiz..n nw, thr's prob wif the survey we did b4..and it seems we hav 2 redo?haiz..wth
been helping to train the young galz for mi position in wkend. tiring, even though its coaching, i trained wif them too..tired..
was wondering if i shld go back on mon for hari raya.haiz..dun wana go back home and go back hall again on tue nite, juz few hours oso ..so troublesome..so anione of u wan go out on tue 2 buy cny clothes?i haven get ani..die liao..n its cuming in few wks time..n in tt case i wont nid 2 go home on mon..so if anione, give mi a sms...
plz do nt give mi ani more hope..i'm sure u wan 2 get out of dis too..do leave me alone..and plz make ur intention known, no more mind guessing games for me. i'm so sick of it, so scared of turning soft, weak and vulnerable.
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Wednesday, January 04, 2006
This is an overdue post..lstly, happy new year to all..so far, dis new year has been a gd start for mi, fulfilling some of my resolutions..
spent the last dae of 2005 at lulu's hse, playing mahjong and crappings..gonna miss them when sch starts..n lulu gg to aust to study..all e best dude..
haiz..sch starts liao..wat can i sae?..6 daes wk..haiz..even hav lab on sat..haiz..n i ended up getting marketing elective..haiz..worse still, tcm is nt as simple and interesting as i tot..it's so so so C.Lit.Used to hate C.Lit, nw i hav 2 tahan 12 hours of tcm each wk..omg..we r nw learning all the ancient handwriting and watever shitty stuffs..somehw, the lecturer is nt as boring as it shld b..haiz..i wonder if i can tahan it n do well for tcm..can't believe it has such a heavy weightage of 6AUs..haiz..
congrats to edwin..he gt into commandoes and he even gt shortlisted for pilot..so proud of him..dun b mistaken guys...used to hav feeling for him, but nt animore nw..USED TO..he's lyk my bro, my buddy, my gd fren nw..
hav been fulfulling part of mi resoultion so far, slp early, so far, nt later than 2pm..and...
to 4gt bout him..i did try my best so far, mabe haven seen him so far..but haiz..the nick is juz so disturbing..haiz..dun worry i'll try..n time will heal all wounds..it's juz a matter of time when i'll 4gt him totally.. or may i juz running away, finding comfort in pain..trying to keep myself from trouble?haiz..i wonder too..
Britney spears - someday u'll understand
Nothin` seems to be the way
That it used to
Everything seems shallow
God give me truth, In me
and tell me somebody`s watching
Over me
And that is all I pray is that
Someday I will understand
In God`s whole plan
And what`s He`s done to me
Oh but maybe
Someday I will breathe
And I`ll finally see
See it all in my baby
Don`t you run too fast my dear
Why don`t you stop
Just stop and listen to your tears
They`re all you`ve got
It`s in you
You see somebody`s watching
Over You
And that is all I pray is that
Someday you will understand
In God`s whole plan
And what he does to you
Oh but baby
Someday you will breathe
And you`ll finally see
You`ll see it all in your baby
You`ll see it all in your baby
No moment will be more true
Than the moment I look at you
It`s in you
You see somebody`s watching over you
and that is all I pray is that
Someday you will understand
In God`s whole plan And what He does to you
Oh but maybe
Someday you will breathe
And you`ll finally see
You`ll see it all in your baby
You`ll see it all in your baby
You`ll see it all in your baby
You`ll see it all in your baby...
Reminiscing stops at |10:18 PM|
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