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Thursday, October 26, 2006
Phew..
Finally the horrendous tcm test is over!!!
okie, not as if i gonna score for it, but at least, it's over..
The past few days of stress over it just turned my life upside down, now at least i can study for exam at my pace, need not to rush to finish the work within few days le.
past one week, as usual, busy busy busy!!
Start of the week was the foc meeting which lasted about 2 hours, and ended up with pages and pages of minutes.lol
Finally, the minutes is done 3 days after the meeting.Talk about efficiency here.well, blame it on the horrible test then.
Missed the camalus' outing to watch the prestige. Haiz, heard, it's vv nice wor..i wana watch too.
Tuesday was hols, but stayed in hall to study for the test.
To reward ourselves after a day of studying, off we went to suntec for asian buffet dinner.
Then the rest of the week was more mugging for tcm test. Haiz!!
Shant comment how badly i gonna be doing for it. At least, wat's done is done.
Shall stop here, will have a longer post, maybe after exam.
Better get ready to copy work, and mugging..
Life just suck when exam is near..
but with u ard mugging with me, it just brighten up the dark moments of my day.
ohm is motivated...
Reminiscing stops at |6:02 PM|
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Supposed to be studying for my tcm test tml, somehow, i m just so sick of it. So much to study, so much to memorise. At this age, we still have to memorise everything word by word, like doing mo xie lyk tt. This is horrrendous lo, esp when our memory is failing us. It just make me so so pissed. Y did some ppl enjoy studying tcm, can do so so well? n for brunch of ppl lyk us, felt so tired n sick of studying tcm, dozing off at almost every lect? Maybe, it's all down to the word, interest!!
The studying for this test made me felt so F up.
It has turned my life upside down, disturbing my revision timetable and lastly, n more importantly, interfering with my mood, bringing out the temper in me.
Like some of my frenz, halfway, studying the test, i feel like giving up, breaking down into tears. It's just impossible to finish studying for the test, so so much to study. Blame it on us then, for not doing consistency studying.
If holding on is the right choice...
ohm is exhausted..she just need a break, to lie down here and forget the world..
Reminiscing stops at |1:45 PM|
Saturday, October 21, 2006
Nice, sad song heard on 987..
Hurt - Christina Augilera
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't to do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away
Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try to turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you
ohm is tired...
Reminiscing stops at |6:46 PM|
Friday, October 20, 2006
Another week has just pass lyk tt...
It has been a busy week..
Exam is coming in less than a month, and it's a time to burn midnight oil, and tough it out..
We'll do it all Everything On our own We don't need Anything Or anyone If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Had the lst foc meeting on wed..
Gonna be busy with all the admin stuffs and minutes..
Sometimes, it's the wunderful memories that bring one back to help out in the event. Maybe, it's my lst varsity camp, hall camp, and the memory which is deeply embedded in me as a chivaian, tt attract me to join back the foc as camalus-ian GL dis yr and main com secretary the coming yr..
A mugging period just bring back the times in tjc...
Mugging tgt and listening to the radio, 987. hehe..
A year away from the radio while mugging has brought me back to listening to my fav radio statn as i mugged. Sort of relieve myself from the stress..
and chasing cars is still the no one hits in 987.
Did i mention i have gained weight for the past few months?
The whole week has been kinda on diet?? Of coz, still eating small stuffs, like muffin, drinking malt milk. However, in the end, the outcome is still the same..haiz..
Had headache dis wk, not sure if it's stress or over-starvation.lol.
thanks dear for being by my side, and sorry for showing u my black face..hehe
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Everyone is crazy over GOONG nw..
I can even hear its OST again and again or c ppl watching vcd/dvd in hall..
It's just like me last sem, watching goong over and over agn, till nw, when i having meals in my rm, i would still watch it agn. haha.ya, kinda deprived of movies, haven gone to get them from the pirates.
Oh ya, heard dey gg to have goong part 2 soon, but the main actors and actresses are diff dis time..hope it'll still b as nice..
Maybe, like wat yy said, watching GOONG, esp the parts on the bears, Alfred bears, made one fall in love with bears easily. Just like i love my bears, introvert and king kong nw..hehe..
School has been the same.
tcm lessons everyday, at least 2 hours a day. Haiz.
and seriously, it's getting more cheem and maybe nt as boring as last time, but it seems like i m always late for tt lesson, and finding myself trying to force open my eyes at the end of the lesson. Haiz. So sickening la, trying to finish the whole module in 6 wks??!! Haiz!!!Some of ur are just so tired of the course..
It has been mentioned lately on the papers that the bioscience, life science industry is saturated and do not need any more life science researchers.
Few years ago, still rmb, the govt encouraging people to venture in this area and mentioning it going to be another pillar of the country's economy.
well, c wat happen nw?? Maybe dey shld try controlling the no of ppl studying a particular course to avoid such circumstances agn, just like medicine, dentistry and pharmancy.
Was telling dear that maybe nxt few yrs, after i grad, tcm will also face such prob, since dey are like increasing the no of ppl taking this course every yr. Y would a small country nid so so much sensei when there are so many western docs ard too??!!
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
Finally, @ home on a friday night..
Deepavali tml..
Happy Deepavali!!
hehe..
Another hols coming up nxt wk = Another break = more mugging hours = more burned out session..
Another busy week nxt wk, in fact more busy..
2 meetings coming up, foc meeting on monday, and beach day cum night cycling meeting on wed.
polo trning wif my hall mates on thur
exam supper delivered to my doorsteps on thurs, wif dear..
tcm test on thurs.
More muggings to go..3 more wks to exam..
HAIZ!!
Despite being occupied wif so much things, i'll still be missing u for the wkend.
thanks for always being by my side..
All that I am All that I ever was Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see I don't know where Confused about how as well Just know that these things will never change for us at all If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?Haiz, back to mugging agn..
ohm is in mugging mode, and missing u.....
Help me believe
'Cause I don't want to miss any miracles
Maybe I'd see much better by closing my eyes
And I would shed this grownup skin I'm in
To touch an angel's wing
And I would be free
Help me believe
Reminiscing stops at |9:05 PM|
Saturday, October 14, 2006
An update of pics..
It all happened last friday nite..mini mid-autumn festival, wif sparklers, lightsticks and mooncakes..
Staying back in hall for this wkend again..haiz..
cuz wanted to and hoping to get some work done. Lotsa catching up nid to be done..
Moreover, mum n dad r gg to a wedding dinner tml, haiz, couldnt fetch me back either, n as usual, i was too lazy to travel all the way back to the ulu island alone wif my bags of supply..
Just now, my parents came over as usual, bringing my dinner and supply with them..haiz..
Mum was so sweet, she knew i was heaty esp wif an ulcer at the bottom of my tongue..ouch...
she came here wif a drink she made to relieve the heatiness..hee
How i hope can be at home nw, lying on mum's bed trying to get attraction from her, like a little girl..
Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.
Celebrated the 2nd month one day b4 the actual day..and it was 13th the Friday!!
All went well, except for the early morning, i slipped and fell in the toliet..lol
It all started with the collection of the tix at new cathay cineplex..
Outside the Picture House..
Then, it was dinner at the Manhanttan Fish Market...
Sizzling your way...
Our fried platter...yummy...
With dear..
Then, it was back to cineplex to catch the WTC.. @ the Grand Cathay..hehe..so NICE thr lo..
Not a bad movie, i did cry a bit, cuz it was sad..but nt vv intense emotional, like wat the paper had described, and maybe 4.5 stars was a bit too much for it..lol
us,trying to take a fast pic b4 the movie starts..
After movie, it was a walk to the nearby for the famous tau huey..
Followed by a slow walk to the orchard..hehe
It was a night of fun and happiness..
Thank you so much for what u have done..
Thank you for always being there..
Thank you for your care and concern..
Thank you for pampering me with ur love..
I was lucky to know u..
Life definitely wouldnt the same w/o u...
Happy 62th...
ohm is drowning in happiness..but still missing someone at the moment..
Reminiscing stops at |11:21 PM|
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Seriously, i m feeling old..
I cant tolerate late nights animore and always feeling tired...
Looking shagged gg sch..
Pimples invading my face...
Dark circles expanding themselves ard my eyes..
Damn..i nid something to refresh myself, to get myself ready for the preparation of exam..
Going at this stage, i'm gonna look 40 yrs old at the end of the yr..haiz..
Trying and hoping to catch up wif my work, especially after wasting my whole sem break on the bms exam..Haiz..
Horribly, the tcm bible lesson is putting me to slp..haiz..
Gonna be getting real busy for the nxt few wks and nxt sem..
Gt myself involved as the secretary for nxt yr hall foc main com, and Beach day and night cycling main com..
the nxt 2 days will be busy days for me too..
esp fri..lol..
Counting down...2 more days to go..
I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what
I'm going to do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of Grace
I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be
I'm looking past the shadows
Of my mind into the truth and
I'm trying to identify
The voices in my head
God which one's you?
Let me feel one more time
What it feels like to feel
And break these calluses off me
One more time
'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside your door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be
I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting
For the straps to fall
Off your table to the ground
I just want to be here now
'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside heaven's door and listen to you
where I want to be
I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be
Reminiscing stops at |2:17 AM|
Sunday, October 08, 2006
| You Are Strawberry Ice Cream |
 A bit shy and sensitive, you are sweet to the core.You often find yourself on the outside looking in.Insightful and pensive, you really understand how the world works.
You are most compatible with chocolate chip ice cream. |
What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?
i m strawberry ice=cream..hehe..
ya..i love choco chip ice-cream lo..lol
annabel, i m most compatible wif u??!! lol
wkend was spent at home, rushing practical report and assignment..haiz
no life lo, tot it was a wkend can enjoy and relax a bit..haiz..
At least, it is my last lab report of the sem, then i can conc on my studies and all the catching-up le..
mid-autumn was spent wif dear n yj, playing wif light-sticks, sparklers and eating mooncakes in hall. Haha, n we did surprise yj, but appearing outside her rm. hehe. A different kind of celebration. Thanks dear..
Tml gg to catch up wif cs n bl. Been a long long time since we last met and chat, except the few minutes during the forensic science break last wk.
and tue, miting my dear les partner, yp for dinner. This woman always busy, finally have time for me le..hehe..
Missing ahs ppl..
Long time din catch up wif the galz and the "always suan-ing us" guys..
songwei was mentioning a kbox session..
organise and tell us soon lo, b4 exam starts..
Yeah, nxt year, many of them are coming ntu lo, can catch up wif them again...
Miss the tjcians..
Though just met up wif some of them 2 wks ago..
one day, lets go back to tj again. Have been talking about it since last year lo.
I miss the conducive library..hehe..where we always mugged together and of cuz the siao cha bo ms tiew oso..lol
and even the pe lessons, the route we ran..the lucky heights..the steep slopes..hehe
Miss the training i had in toa payoh..
Even miss the times i gt hit by the ball..
The night trnings, the night supper, the scoldings and naggings from coach??...haiz..
Miss those times when we were so innocent, and wearing the white uniform or dirty green ones.
Those funny jokes we had, and annabel, do u still have the page that you recorded down our crappy things u n i done??
Miss those times wif my hall mates and the ah peks..
Miss the late night supper..
Miss the mahjong sessions..
Miss the movie sessions..
Miss the gossip sessions..
Now, missing someone..
tt someone....
Somehow, i cant wait for the 62th days to come..
It is going to be another significant day in my life..
ohm misses u...
Reminiscing stops at |9:29 PM|
Thursday, October 05, 2006
So far, school was okie, except for tcm lesson..as usual so chinese lit..haiz
Was discussing wif yj bt sth today..sth tt just spoil my whole day..the more i think about it, the more i talk about it...maybe i think too much, or maybe i m just a perfectionist..so please dun ask wat's it about..
Know how i said sometimes even the people you thought you could trust can prove you wrong?
Well, sometimes, someone does something amazing. It doesnt have to be someone u trust. Doesn't have to be anything great, but it touches you in a way you can't explain. It's very innocent, very pure, very sincere. And it stands out because it's different from all the rest.
You simply don't know how to take it, and you don't know if you trust it, but somehow, you do. Simply because this person made you feel that someone actually cared enough to think about you, and not just tell you that. Not anything spectacular, but the impact was just that. A little bit goes a long way, right?Some people are really nice afterall. Genuinely nice. So many people don't know what they want to do with their lives. Most people just go with the flow and take whatever life hands out to them. But sometimes, all you need is someone like this to happen to see that life is not just a straight narrow corridor. A little pit stop at the next room you pass, or a little peek out the window can make that much difference.
"Why build up hopes so that you can be disappointed?"
well, maybe it's foolish and silly, but i held onto hope, like the hope of meaning something to you, because that gave me something to go for. something to do. something to want...even though it hurt sometimes. and yet, despite the hurt, it made me happy to hope.
i was happy when you messaged me, happy when you're happy about something i did for you. i was happy with the hopes i built and didn't want to stop hoping because the moments of happiness i got beats the disappointment i felt when things didn't end up the way i wanted because at that point in my life, those moments were the happiest i've been...
there's so much uncertainty in life...and sometimes, a little hope is what some people need to get through it. maybe because, to some people, where a special someone is concerned, no matter what, keep hoping and holding on is enough. a little hope might just bring with it a little bit more happiness. like children, we never give up hope.and sometimes, it doesn't really matter that it's happy ever after, just as long as it's happy right now. that's why people cling on to hope.
ohm is thinking...the icy cold numbness god-mother just occupy her whole heart..
ohm wans drink vodka...absolute vodka..(a bottle of absolut vodka was sitting on my shelf..tempting me..)
:) ----- :S -----:( ----- :'( ----- :
Reminiscing stops at |3:59 PM|
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
have to blog about my post-exam (post-bms 203 exam) feelings before i settle down to study for forensic science quiz tml..lol..so much to mention...
Yeah, bms 203 tcm diagnostic exam is FINALLY over, after a wk of muggings, muggings n more muggings..Overall, the ppr was okie (well, everyone finds it ok oso), nt as bad as i thought. Aniwaze, i have cleared my 6AUs, yeah..20 more AUs to go..
post-exam mood: shagged!! but relaxed and relieve
Felt so tired after exam, but still have to tahan till 5 plus pm, after the new tcm module, emperor's canon of internal medicine. ya, from the name, can c hw cheem and boring it is lo. It's just lyk chinese literature..omg...i hate this!! It just put me to sleep, esp the monotonous voice of the professor. haiz. hw m i gg to do for this 6 AU subj lo??!!
Had a nap, just nw, but still feeling tired. Must be suffering from the insufficient slp last nite lo. Couldnt slp last nite at all, was tossing and turning for about 2 hours b4 i finally got into my dreamland.
And now, i felt to tired to study for the forensic science quiz for tml..Haiz..My brain is nt in the right state to study, it needs some rest now..haiz..still gt to rush my anatomy assignment constitute 20 % of the module due on thurs, and lab report..Haiz..
Romance is definitely in the air..
some of my freshies are in love..hehe..one just cum over to my room and tell me about it, but the guy just dun wana reveal hu isit..haiz..lol
and tml, we gg 2 hav mid autumn festival celebration..hehe..
and the actual day is dis friday!! yumyum..moodcakes!!hehe
and nxt wk, one of the day is a special day...
noe it???!!!
Seem lyk post-203 exam is exciting..
Mum was telling me, a diff of 3 yrs is nt gd..3 is nt gd..aiyo, at lst i tot it's just my mum being superstitious, instilling her crapping stuffs in me. What i find it atonishing was tt yj's mum said the same thing too...omg..MUMs are just MUMS..
Oudated short update on the one wk hols..
Well, nuthun much, except mugging and mugging for just solely bms 203..haiz
and of cuz, spending time wif dear..movie, studying in library, dinner, supper..
and i finally tried dear's kaya bread (the one he been boasting about)..lol
Yup, went to watch Stay Alive last friday. Well, the plot is kinda predictable...and lotsa nice movies cuming up lo, CANT WAIT!!
yup, and happy bdae to jing and kl last monday!!!
it was so sweet of u...
to cum all over here to wish me "all the best", the night b4 my exam..
to hand me the lucky apple..
the sight of u..
the little hug..
the sweet little mesgs
seems to work wonder,
removing all traces of stress..
the little things u do..
the little thoughts u have..
the sweet little talks we have..
just warm my heart every moment..
It would be wonderful if we could just lie thr, forgetting about the world..
thank you for being thr..
A classic from 1993?hehe
Puff DAddy - I'll be missing you
[Intro: Puff Daddy]
Every day I wake up
I hope I'm dreamin
I can't believe this shit
Can't believe you ain't here
Sometimes it's just hard for a nigga to wake up
It's hard to just keep goin
It's like I feel empty inside without you bein here
I would do anything man, to bring you back
I'd give all this shit, shit the whole knot
I saw your son today
He look just like you
You was the greatest
You'll always be the greatest
I miss you Big
Can't wait til that day, when I see your face again
I can't wait til that day, when I see your face again...
Yeah... this right here (tell me why)
Goes out, to everyone, that has lost someone
That they truly loved (c'mon, check it out)
[Verse One: Puff Daddy]
Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hangin on the block for dough
Notorious, they got to know that
Life ain't always what it seem to be (uh-uh)
Words can't express what you mean to me
Even though you're gone, we still a team
Through your family, I'll fulfill your dream (that's right)
In the future, can't wait to see
If you open up the gates for me
Reminisce some time, the night they took my friend (uh-huh)
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it's real, feelings hard to conceal
Can't imagine all the pain I feelGive anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living your life, after death
[Chorus: Faith Evans]
Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you
[Puff] I miss you Big
[Verse Two: Puff Daddy]
It's kinda hard with you not around (yeah)
Know you in heaven smilin down (eheh)
Watchin us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you
Til the day we meet again
In my heart is where I'll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need (uh-huh) to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts Big I just can't define (can't define)
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us in the 6, shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me taking flicks
Makin hits, stages they receive you on
I still can't believe you're gone (can't believe you're gone)
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living you're life, after death
[Chorus]
[Faith Evans] Somebody tell me why
[Interlude: Faith Evans]
On that morning
When this life is over
I know
I'll see your face
[Outro: 112]
Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
Every night I pray, every step I take
[Puff] Every day that passes
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] Is a day that I get closer
[Puff] To seeing you again
Every night I pray, every step I take
[Puff] We miss you Big... and we won't stop
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] Cause we can't stop... that's right
Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] We miss you Big
[music fades out]
Better get going, start reading my forensic sciene notes despite how reluctant my brain is..haiz..
n it's gg to be 11pm lo...haiz..
ohm is feeling shagged..but happy!!!
Reminiscing stops at |10:57 PM|
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