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Friday, February 24, 2006
finallie, spending the wkend at home...the feeling of home is juz so diff if u haven been home for 2 wks..everyone starts treating u so nice..mum cooks ur fav food, dad helping u to move ur stuffs fr hall back to home and vice versa..ur bro letting u use the com w/o complaints and letting u watch ur fav tv prog..so nice of them..came back home last wkend, and was telling mum on the journey back home tt i suddenly hav the craving for curry chicken wif fried bee hoon..and guess wat, the nxt time, i woke up..i have tt for lunch..so swt and was so touched..
sun was spent ard bugis and city hall wif the nuts doing the scrapbook and had dinner and short nite shopping wif kl, ts and her big guy..
mon was the busy dae spent at the airport..went to c wq off and followed by qi lao shi, the tcm tutor..
wed afternoon, did some shopping alone 2 satisfy mi shopping desire for the hols b4 gg back hall..and it was a terrible horrible night..was extremely tired after the shopping and fell aslp at 12 plus..hoping tt i wld slp peacefully and hav 2 gd slp..wth..the neighbours hav some sort of party wif some of the cheerleaders as usual..making damn lotsa noise in the middle of the nite..as a deep sleeper, its the lst time i was woken up by them at ard 3am..
3AM lo..wth..and immediately, i could feel mi head in pain..headache..and was so so irritated wif their unconsideration tt i mesg py for the lst time to ask them 2 keep their volume dwn..mentioning tt they're a bit too loud even a deep sleeper lyk mi r woke up by them..argh..i hate ppl disturbing mi when i;'m slping..esp when i'm trying to get mi beauty slp after a tiring dae..wth
thurs morning..woke up early..for the main com acapella practice for the sbs dae..sianz..but i kinda enjoy it..esp haven been singing for yrs..ever since sec 4..i miss choir suddenly..haha..i miss dose tedious trning..mind-straining trnings..eh..okie..a bit sadist..but i miss it..haha..then went movie wif yoke peng and cat for the lst time..at lst wana catch final destination 3..but cat dun wan..in the end, we watch rumors has it..a super funnie show indeed..i love jennifer aniston hair..so silky and smooth for one of the scene..
"i didnt cum here 2 tell u tt i cant live w/o u. i can live w/o u.i juz dun wan to."
"i only drive slowly cuz u're in the car"
(so swt..omg..)
then it was back in hall..dutifully fulfiling mi job as the pirate again..
it was followed by some videos clips at issac's rm..i couldnt even stand watching one eighth of the part 1 and start to feel extremely terrible..horrible..cant stand it..and ran out of the rm..back to mi rm..feel lyk puking after tt..horrible..terrible..dun understand hw the guys can stand it..argh..
then went to collect mi clothes..wth..lst time dis happens..i lost 2 of mi clothing and mi washing bag was zipped open when i went dwn 2 collect mi clothes..wth..obviously..someone steal mi blue top and FBT shorts..hu's tt cheapo lo..wth..and guess wat..fri morning..,i went dwn wif lena to the washing machine rm, and found mi blue top on one of the machines..but nt the one i used yesterdae..at least the person has some conscience to return one of mi clothing..argh..cheapo thief..pissed and sad..
thurs nite has been a long nite..and slept till noon..then went home on fri..came back home..slp again..lyk a pig..wth..haiz..
haiz..hols gg 2 b ovr soon..i still hav nt enuff breaks and i haven done much..seriously..suppose to catch up wif mi wrk..but it seems no progress at all..tts terrible..argh..hate miself for being so so so so slack..and exams cuming soon..wth..
watever it is..i dun care liao..i cant b bothered liao..its hard..reallie hard..argh...y dun u juz tell mi wat 2 do?
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Saturday, February 18, 2006
can do
this for mi?thanks...
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Friday, February 17, 2006
Its all in the mind...
finallie, i truly understand wat edwin means when he told mi dis some time ago..
latest news: he said sth..well..fine..as if i care..i'm juz kpo tts all..wan 2 c hu's the unfortunate gal after all.
The funnie thingy is tt, i dun feel sad at all..which means, i hav given him up n 4gt him? 4gt bout the pains and hurt tt he caused? i believe its actuallie mind ovr heart..telling miself nt 2 cry nor feel sad for tt bastard and of coz, to b strong gal..at this moment, i feel so relaxed suddenly..i feel so happy..i'm so glad tt i feel dis..if its heart ovr mind..i bet i'll b falling into depression again..so plz dun remind mi again..
i'm so glad..thanks edwin..
past few daes, end of the wk hav been so slack for mi, no wrk done..too much happenings in hall..lst is the HO closing ceremony cum inter-hall dance competition on wed and followed by talent-time on thurs..went dwn to support and "show face" wif the guys and celine.
nxt wk is recess wk..finallie..i nid a break..looking damn shagged and tired lately..n to catch up wif mi wrk..damn..one of the tcm module has been completed and i hav nt learnt much..damn..serious case..gonna mug hard dis wk..but still so so so much activities gg on..damn..
back at home..i miss home badly..i miss mi parents..n irritating bro..and of coz home-made food..sometimes, away fr home for sometimes..might b gd too..coz will start to miss one another
absence made the heart grown fonder
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Tuesday, February 14, 2006
HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY
Miss spending tt in tj, whr all of us exchange prez and went crazy..uni vdae is so so diff, most ppl juz spend wif their bf or gf, or spend alone..seldom seem spending wif frenz..sianz..lucky, i went ovr to hall 8 wif derek and join cat and yp thr for dinner..pizza delivery for 2 consecutive daes..argh..then nardev and kenny join us..crapping and joking away..tired from all the lame luffing..haha..so tts hw i spent mi vdae..
yesterdae, we celebrate binlee's bdae..the surprise was a success..yeah..planned for so long lo..but she keep missing in action..hav to wait for so long then it can b carried out..have a fun time..
wkend was once again spent in hall..sat was lonely, after pract, slept the whole afternoon then went dinner wif esther..then came back again, rushing for mi marketing report..argh..feel damn pissed wif it..spent lyk 13 hrs rushing thru it..and i drank half a bottle of vodka while drinking it..then din go for the klass gathering..so sorrie..sun, was much better, at least neighbour, py stay ovr the wkend, can pei mi go dwn for lunch,but din pei him for dinner, so sorrie..coz mi mum brought home-made food all the way to the hall for mi..i miss home-made food..so tired of hall food liao..haiz..
used to tink stars so beautiful and nice..nt animore..mab nt so much nw... mabe snow flakes seem better?haha
the feelings of giving hope and put mi dwn..its no use, trying to poke into mi life nw, asking mi whr i went and wat i'm doing tt..its none of ur business aniwaze..juz so disappointed wif u..almost break dwn todae during lect..if u all hav realise i was sniffing when i din hav a cold..but i manage to ctrl miself..i've kept mi resolution..nvr to cry for tt bastard animore..n i dun care wat u gave mi lo..its of no use if the prez is nt given in the lst place and nt fr ur heart..if u wan 2 play along wif mi..i jolly welcum..both of us will onli end up wif injuries..and i'm totally numb to it..
Reminiscing stops at |11:57 PM|
Saturday, February 11, 2006
sianz..spending the wkend in hall again.its the 2nd time dis sem.hav 2 pia my marketing report and lab reports..haiz..
nuthun much happened dis wk..
thur was binlee and oky's bdaes..celebrated wif them at hall 3..hav lotsa fun thr, and we even played daidee in the cooridor..haha..when binlee was supposed to do her stats tut..
of coz, the exciting and crazy part of the wk is fri nite..neighours,py,ber,jer,shaun,nicole and celine stayed ovr juz for the TOTO results..madnesss..cant believe 9 of the neighbours actuallie paid 200 bucks for quickpick, excluding the fact that each of them also bought their inidvidual share. the funny part was of coz, before the results was released and the guys r juz mad..dey'll asking everyone of us to wear red clothes, and dey even took the mahjong table into their rm and spread the bet tix on the table and took videos of it..in the end, when the results were out, they did not even win a single cent..and dey started their mad behavoir once again. They started pasting the useless tix on the doors of our closer neighbours and dey even went into issac's rm, and pasted the tix all ovr the place, even in his cap, and underwear...madness..hahah..and dey even tricked the whole hall into tinking tt dey had won the 2nd group of tix which is 35000 bucks..this is so mad..till nw dey haven revealed the truth..ahhaa..after tt, we hav mahjong session..py,ber,celine and i..and i was in luck..won bout 15 bucks..but we did nt reallie finish the game, coz py has to wrk the nxt dae, n i has lab..haiz..but it was a fun nite, wif the neighbour once again..haven been so fun and siao for a long time..certainly will miss those times when i'm nt staying in hall..
nxt wk is the last wk of lst term of sch, b4 we go off for a wk break..cant wait, wan 2 catch up wif mi wrk, more meet-ups and definitely, more rest and a break fr all the unhappiness and stress..
vdae cuming..and i hav no date,..hahaha..but at least some of the main com are meetng for steamboat at hall 5..cant wait.
Lena's bdae pics:
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Sabrina, lena and i ..cooking mee suanz
weiwen,sabria,binlee and lena
junjie,winnie and lena
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Wednesday, February 08, 2006
y r u so so sensitive? y u mind so much when i meant nuthun 2 u at all..y r u saeing tt i'm hurting u, esp when u ask mi nt to misunderstand in the lst place..
if u tink i'm hurting u..u r juz hurting urself..
tink bout the hurt tt u hav brought bout..i juz cant b bothered bout u animore..
so if u wana hurt mi again, well..u r hurting urself eventually..i'm numb to the hurt and pains..so pardon mi for the coldness tt i'm giving u, esp after all u hav done..and dun blame mi for the hurt..coz u r the cause of it urself..
mon, watched i not stopid too, lst time wif mi course ppl,esther,wh,yj,serene and tcm prof wif his husband..
and i cried almost throughout the whole show..so so sad..sob..sob..sob..
counselling by edwin on the fone again. he trying to find ways to help mi 4gt the unhappiness i had..so nice of him..him n his "its all in the mind"..and "telling myself to be strong"..sadly, i'm juz weak..unlike him..mentally and pysically strong.sick still can go thru the strenous commandoes trning..pei fu..n hes gonna b off to tekong for 2-3 wks..gonna miss mi dear bro then..
went for isrg @ hall 8 again juz nw..sianz..but ended up playing darts juz nw..lst time throwing darts..gd experience..yp and derek were teaching mi hw 2 throw and aim properly etc..so fun..hahah
john gg attachment for 6 mths..hes leaving tonite..wed nite..he juz told mi he might b staying on in shanghai for bout a yr..a yr?when its supposed to b 6 mths..he juz dun wan tell mi the reason..haiz..tc dude..enjoy urself there and will miss ya..mi dear fren..
Reminiscing stops at |12:36 AM|
Sunday, February 05, 2006
When 2 cum tgt,its isnt all about love..it’s the dependency on each other tt losing another will find it hard to survive.
Love..the feeling..is juz so superficial..it can easily fade wif time..but it’s the needs, the wants for each other tt will last a r/s..
A gal will hurt the most when the one whom her heart has grown so dependent on left her for another..
Tt’s hw hurting it is..n I knew it well..
some ppl juz go wif the crowd..in Chinese, we call it 见异思迁..here I meant frenz, nt as lovers..
Been so busy wif bo liao stuffs..and mi wrk is lagging bhind..i felt so guilty. Promised myself end of last sem tt dis sem, I’ll keep abreast wif mi wrk, lect, and tut..but it seems so much things r happening at the same time, and interrupting mi schedule. It juz mean tt all mi wrkload is piling up..i hate dis feeling..the feeling of guilt..whenever I feel tt, mi mood will change, the old bad-tempered gal seems to return lately..
Last fri, skip mi morning lect for the lst time dis sem..guilt again..i cant wake up..excuses..i’m so so tired esp after rushing ovr to hall 8 for isrg for few nites in a row..wasted mi whole nite thr, when I can clear mi wrkloads..damn!! it will cont for another wk..
So much thingys on mi mind, I juz cant recall wat happened for the past few daes..sth did happen, but I juz cant seem to rmb..short memory lately yet no time to update this pathetic blog of mine..
Reminiscing stops at |4:35 PM|
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
have nt been in gd mood last wk, pms,pissed,anger..watever...
but all dese hav been gone..the feelings start to fade, the anger and the sadness start to disappear too..
goodbye then..i tink i'll b happier nw..for i'm having way too much fun and too busy to bother bout anythingy..
last wed n thurs hav been gg dwn every nite for the isrg..tiring..esp after tt hav to rush thru all the tut n hw..sianz..no wonder i feel so pms and frustrated..
on wed nite, edwin gave mi a 2nd surprise call..he was onli given an hour free..ns men r so pathetic..hahah..n he gave mi a call while i was at isrg..n we tok bout an hour, crapping bout his ns stuffs, and others..so nice of him of coz..hahha
went home on last fri nite instead of sat..coz dun wana stay back in sch to do pract on cny eve..so pathetic lo..lol..so went for the pract on fri..
cny has been okie for mi..as usual, the lst dae visit mi mum's side relatives and 2nd dae was allocated for mi dad's. dis yr there's no gambling for mi, no poker cards nor mahjong at cny..decide to b gd gal..hahah..and ended up chatting wif some of mi cousins..esp dose we mit once in a yr tt kinds..
lst dae of cny, we went to hongbao river..disappointing..compared to the past yr, dis yr was in fact nuthun, the location has been shifted and the carnival was indeed much smaller..ended up, i onli went dwn to look at mi zodiac for dis yr and having fun throwing coins into the wishing pond..n i hit the respective bells: sheng yi xin rong(eh..i'm nt wrking nw leh..),mei man ying yuan(dis is weird..i dun hav a bf..wat's more a husband..hahha), guo tai ping wan, and lastly, wan shi ru yi..hahha..
3rd dae of cny..went dwn one of mi auntie's hse, then mit up wif edwin..long time din c him..bout 3/4 of the yr since we last met..diff is..he's botak nw, n tougher..broader shoulder, and more toned..of coz..after 3 wks of strenous commandoes trning..at lst wanted to watch i nt stopid too..haiz..but all full hse..sianz..so ended up playing games at arcade and sitting ard chatting away..
my mood has started to change for the better..tt's gd..hahha..esp after the cny,and the outing wif edwin, alreadie cheer mi up..thanks buddy, for being thr for mi when i'm dwn..
and todae being the 3rd dae of cny, is the dae when i confessed to him 2 yrs ago..i can still rmb clearly tt it falls on dis dae on the lunar calendar, as 2 yrs ago, we're taking SAT..hahah..
2 yrs ago was the confession, 2 yrs later, went out as gd frenz and buddies..
gonna slp soon, wan to slp early, and get energise for the rest of the wk..thurs and fri nite hav 2 go dwn for isrg again, and sat thr's pract and marketing make-up..haiz..
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