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Thursday, March 30, 2006
some updates for the past few daes
JON BROKE MY BED!!!
dun b mistaken though, jon n lena were in mi rm playing othello, while bl n i were mugging away..hmm..then i decide to take a break n went to disturb them..hmm..nope..its jon hu's disturbing mi, keep pushing mi bed away fr the original position, n i ended beating him up n pushing mi bed back to the position..then lena challenge him to carry my bed wif mi sitting on it, n jon did it..damn..n i was damn shocked and i screamed..omg..and lena joined in too..she sat on it too, and the bed broke..argh..the hal of the screws came out..and half of the frame is unattachd to the steel..shit..we tried to replace the screws but..cant..ended up we hav 2 report to the hall office, and the ppl juz cum to repair it..so..argh..paiseh lo..all thanks to jon..hahah..
nt meeting the galz dis fri liao..haiz..sad..coz i've to scarifice it for mi studies..so much to study..haiz..i totally hav no confidence for dis cuming exam..damn..
skinny mi..mugging in sch..
gg out for dinner cum supper tonite..wif the usual ones,bl, lena, rena, n jon..walking out..to city harvest then..dunno wan 2 go nt..still feeling sick and weak..haiz..sad..it might b the last supper for us tgt b4 some of us move out of hall..haiz..
sick..sick..sick..
sumtimes, i juz hope u'll leave mi alone..
some fotos for update..taken at the motor fest in sch..
i love dis convertible fr Saab
mini cooper..so cute..suitable for little ts?hahahha
Reminiscing stops at |1:44 PM|
sick..down wif sore throat, bad sore throat and even lost mi voice..eh..juz went toliet to vomit, vomit out some of the disgusting yellowish stuffs, feel much better nw, but the throat still in pain, have the urge to vomit ani moment..argh..slept the whole afternoon todae..tired, plus sick..lethargic..even nw, i still feel tired, and weak..haiz..dis afternoon, i feel so sick tt i feel lyk crying, hiding miself under the blanket to slp..i miss the concern i had if i were at home..mum or dad wld chk on mi in the middle of the night..okie, it seems i'm nt so independent after all, as pampered as ever..
lots of catching-up to do, when it's supposed to be revision for exams..eaxctly 2 wks time, i gt mi lst ppr..argh..n totally unprepared..cant get ani tcm stuffs into mi head..esp wif the condition i'm in nw..sob..
watever happens, u're nvr thr 2 catch mi, letting mi fall deeper wif scars and pains instead..
Reminiscing stops at |2:30 AM|
Sunday, March 26, 2006
something to ponder about:
"Its nt whether u can or nt, its a matter of whether u wan or nt"
how true isit? many times, when we failed to get sth tt we wan, we dream of, we wish of, we find excuses like.."mabe its lack of our talent", "try again, nxt time", "its okie, mabe its fate, some things r juz nvr meant to b"..perhaps we juz din not want success badly enuff, tts y we did nt put in most efforts. its the same, when it cums to work, r/s etc..have u ask urself, " y did i fail?" " y cant i get wat i wan?" "wat's wrong wif mi?" have u qns ur own shortcumings, or juz blaming on others or fate? consolation to oneself is nvr realistic.
sumtimes, i blame the presence of someone in mi life, blacklisting her, consoling miself tt if she is nt ard, things wldnt hav been so bad, things wldnt have turned out lyk tt..(wont mention hu isit though)
cum to tink of it, mabe i did nt wan tt badly enuff, i did nt try hard enuff..did i?
all tt i've paid for it, juz aint enuff..??
juz tired to cont trying..
mabe tt's all i can ever get..
mabe was juz foolish enuff to fall into ur trap again and again..
i'm really okay with it, i will not be selfish. i will not ask you to stay, because i want it for your own good.
some ppl might look innocent, but they are the most incorrigible ones..horrible, terrible bunch of bitches..no one will noe wat lies beneath them, wat's they r tinking, their evil motives..sweet innocent bitches r juz bunch of undesirable homo sapiens.
Reminiscing stops at |3:17 PM|
Saturday, March 25, 2006
in the midst of doing marketing report, decide to take a break fr it..
few more hrs leta, i'll b off for lab..haiz..again..
wrk has nt been progressing dis wk, esp wif so mani gossiping nites, wif jon, lena n rena..
i feel so sick suddenly, sick of everything..
some ppl r juz so hypocrites, juz cant stand them sometimes..so cant blame mi y i've switch back to the dao-ness i used to hav in sec n jc..
tired of studying, esp tcm..so much stuffs to rmb and yet nuthn seem 2 get into mi mind at all..tired..
isit true tt, when one is stressed, one tend to tink of someone? will start to miss the person and at the same time, hope to see him/her and tok 2 him/her..
its normal to miss someone, but to mi, missing u is juz so wrong..
Reminiscing stops at |4:00 AM|
Saturday, March 18, 2006
BAD MOOD lately..moodswings..nt pms though, juz pissed wif miself..so much things to do, so much things on mi mind..
i'm disappointed wif mi course though, esp the tcm part.All are nt planned for us at all.Dey juz find the prof of respective modules at the eleventh hour. i cant imagine nxt sem's module, anatomy..dey juz find the prof recently for us, worse still, its supposed to b a tcm module, yet dese prof are teaching us in eng, and our tut will b taught by china students in chi..wth??!!wont it b more confusing? worse still, anatomy..yet dere's no dead body for us 2 operate on..hw wld us able to survive in china and compare wif the others thr in 2 1/2 yrs times..terrible..horrible..and even our tcm modules, it seems tt the prof fr china juz cum n go, and within one term, they rushed to finish one module..and leaving us, poor students here in doubt..i hate dis..even nw, i hav no confidence of yi gu wen, when the module supposed to finish last term..argh..
and juz nw, mum was telling mi bt hw impt it's for us to master some of our modules, etc..and she was asking mi when i'll b free so tt she'll bring mi 2 a sensei hu will try 2 kai dao mi bt tcm..haiz..i noe, she understand tt i was extremely stressed bt the tcm course, and having difficulty in grasping the gist of it..but the unfilial mi, juz shoot her back as usual, and ran back 2 mi rm lying on the bed, feeling terrible..
its hard not 2 b the person u wanted..
sumtimes, one shld hav the courage to do wat one wans.Whether it'll b a success or a failure, at least in future on looking back in the past, u wont regret.
yet sumtimes, u cant help but wonder if u had made a right choice or if u simply juz make a series of consecutive mistakes..
Reminiscing stops at |9:58 PM|
Friday, March 17, 2006
lately been busy wif mi tcm stuffs..haiz..all the 阴阳五行 and the 五脏六腑 are driving mi crazy..the lst one is still okie..but when it cums to 藏象, it's so so confusing..no wonder the prof was "encouraging" us to quit if we cant cope wif the heavy wrkload of tcm and all the memorising wrk..argh..dying soon..mi memory is failing mi and nw, i hav 2 rmb so so much stuffs, biomedical sci and tcm..dis is killing mi..damn..i definitely nid a long break soon..
juz finish mi lab report due on sat..finallie..wif the help of stan and wc..thanks lotsa dude..
oh ya, did i mention i was crazy ovr a korean drama lately? 我的野蛮王妃..omg..its super nice..hmm..nicer than full house..so so nice, and swt and sad..i cried again as usual. take it as breaks fr the heavy wrkloads..ha
根据同名畅销漫画《宫》改编
原著：朴素熙
导演：黄仁雷
编剧：寅恩雅
首播：1月11日
类型：励志喜剧/漫画改编
主演：尹恩惠饰演申彩京
朱智勋饰演李 信
金正勋饰演李 律
宋智孝饰演闵孝璘
电视剧《宫》是假设在现在的大韩民国立宪君主制的背景下开始的故事。
皇太子信因为皇帝的病患危机而接到皇太后的命令，跟选定下来的对象结婚。信很明白在皇太
子的人生中根本不存在个人的选择，但是他的年龄才十九岁。
虽然皇太子信向女朋友闵孝璘求婚，但是孝璘以为开玩笑，因此灿烂的笑着为了练习参加国际
芭蕾舞比赛而离开。信没有挽留住她，只看着离他而去的孝璘的背影淡淡地微笑着……
事业倒闭以后，彩京的父亲反而成了“家庭妇男”，母亲成为保险
设计师。在辛苦艰难的环境中，
彩京的家人过着幸福的生活，可是突然一下子跟皇室结成了亲家。万万没想到爷爷说的包办婚姻
竟然成为现实，彩京的父母觉得好像做梦一样。年轻轻的只有十九岁就结婚，彩京无法接受而大声
痛哭……信对谁会成为自己的皇太子妃一点也不关心，因此答应结婚。他认为反正不是自己爱的
人，跟和自己一起在宫里像木偶一样生活的人结婚没什么兴趣。
孝璘不知道自己的男朋友结婚的事实，她在异国只专心去练习芭蕾舞。十五年前放弃皇太子封
号跟妻子一起去英国的孝烈皇太子的儿子兼皇位继承人排行第二位的律重新踏上了祖国的
土地。
这消息让皇后本能的感到对皇太子信的皇位的威胁，因此她让信多加注意律，但是信却嘲笑皇位
斗争，根本听不进去皇后说的话。
彩京入宫接受为成为皇太子妃而要进行的教育。来到别宫的信看到穿着大
礼服的彩京非常美
丽，感到很惊讶……
你总是凝视看别处，难道你那孤独的心里只有你自己？
只要能令你微笑，我会在一旁守护你我不让你回，因为我害怕你就会因此离开这里
如果让你出去，你就一定不会回到这里。
i have learned to accept, overcum and let go..but i nvr expect tt i wld b able to cope wif it so fast..mabe the feeling has nt been as deep as i tot, mabe i was numb to the hurt and pain liao..but still,i cant b bothered liao..
y would i look back and grieve ovr the past, for it is gone.. for nw, i juz wana live in the present and make it so beautiful tt it will be worth remembering.
Reminiscing stops at |1:20 AM|
Monday, March 13, 2006
My 110 post for this blog..
so much things i wana sae, but i juz cant afford to..nw, time is the limiting factor, with so so much stuffs to do, n it seems the workload is forever piling up..shit..hw 2 study for exam sia..one mth time nw..haiz..promise miself last sem tt i'll wrk hard dis sem, but it seems tt it nvr wrk well for mi at all..again..too much commitments, too much slacking..damn.this is bad..and nw, i'm wasting time blogging again..wth..
came back hall 6plus in the morning todae..dad called mi up at 5 plus, and sent mi all the way to boon lay..n i miss those times in jc and sec sch, when dad called mi up every morning..and making breakfast for us some of the gd daes..i miss dose..nowadaes, thr's onli pathetic alarm clock waking mi up..snoozing and ringing again and again..and skipping breakfast almost every morning juz to rush for early 830 lessons..haiz..life in uni does suck..huever will sae life in uni is much much better than jc?argh..
sun nite went dwn for trning..helped out in the trning..miss dose daes when wif the team, the fun n joy..the pain of getting hit by the ball, the dinner cum supper after trning wif team mates and the closer guy frenz..miss all dese..but cum to tink of it, i wld feel more stressed if i cont to stay wif the team..much more commitments required then.mabe i did make the right choice like lu.
speaking of lu, tt guy is enjoying himself in aust. as usual, attractive and busy wif galz..
sat, lab again..nowadaes, we couldnt go to the wkdaes lab lessons wif the bs students..haiz..muz b the complaints fr the bs students..and every sat i hav to stay back for lab liao..mi wkend is juz gone lyk tt..argh..one thing gd bout sat lab is tt, fewer ppl, and more hands-onz..so nt bad sia..haiz..cant help..mi sat is taken up..last time, used to watch movies wif edwin on almost every alt sat..but nw..haiz..sianz..
last sat, stayed back for openhse after lab..did ushering wif tai chong, while yin jie and chun cheong were in the teaching lab and boon keong in the com lab..hav a fun time though,mixing, crapping ard..and we were paid for our services...so nt bad though..bro came for openhse oso..din c him..heard he came wif his bestie..he muz hav cum wif his gf though, n dun wan 2 b seen by mi..n he came back telling us, he's interested in aerospace..hmm..madness..tts wat i told him..dunno y..cant imagine him in aerospace though..mabe its in the family gene..wif a cousin in aerospace industry and another in tcm..ha
so so much stuffs to do..exam cuming..haiz..so no more outing for mi animore..guys and galz..wait till after exam k..last dae 4may..haiz..so so late...even leta than mi nus frenz..haiz..
okie..back to study..6 lect quiz tml and presentation..argh..
Reminiscing stops at |4:32 PM|
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
it'll nvr b the same again..the same old gal tt u all hav known all dese yrs..
the fun-loving huimin is gone..the siao cha bo ohm is missing..the mad polo goalie alysa has disappeared..
life will nvr b the same again for her..after so much things have happened..
after getting into the varsity life, the stress, the committment, the depression, the heartbreak...it juz change her totally..
used to hav lotsa ppl ard her, alwaze thr for her..but ...
lu is in aust, busy wif his studies..
edwin is in ns..tiring himself wif all the commandoes trning..dae and nite
ts busy wif her studies in nus and wif her big guy..
kl busy wif her studies in nus too..and her almost everydae prob wif her bestie..
ky busy wif her da fan too..
even if dey're ard her, she wont hav the time to pour out her troubles to them too..haiz..
all i can sae tt, she has becum a moodswing and quiet gal..hiding her sadness and pain within herself..hiding dis permanent sadness..
she's still prefer the old ohm, the one hu used to throw her temper ard, the one of the mad gals to confess to a guy..and the siao cha bo in the pool..
cum to tink of it, she missed swimming..her onli waze of de-stress'ion..
i miss the old me..esp miss the times when wearing uniforms..
Reminiscing stops at |11:46 PM|
tiring for the past few daes..finallie SBS dae is ovr..the main com activities and stuffs can cum to a stop at the moment? hopefully..ast few daes hav been extremely busy wif dis bs dae..so fortunate tt it has been quite a success..well done..bs main com and all the subcommers hu hav helped out..well done..we did a gd job for the lst sbs dae..yeah..
mon was the bs 108 quiz..studied damn hard for the quiz..tot it'll gg 2 b a tough one, wif the nid 2 memorise all the egs etc, but it turned out so much better than i expected..so so much better..so glad after all..
this was followed by spending a whole dae in sbs..doing preparation for the sbs dae, the nxt dae..decorating the place, checking of the sound system and the rehersals, etc..its was horrible and terrible, so much things to do..hahah..and luckily derek went to rent a lorry to load all the stuffs, lyk the tables and chairs fr nanyang hse, the sound system and the jam band equipment..and during late evening, i was asked to go help buy food for the helpers wif yp and cat..fortunately, derek went to fetch us, else we'll b lyk mad women, carrying 23 packs of chicken rice, and 5 bottles of 1.5l of water..this was leta followed by rehersal for the main com and we onli manage to finish everythingy till 1am..haiz..and poor derek has to send every one of us back to our respective hall..luckily, most of the main commers stay in hall 8..came back hall,hoping to hav a gd rest after bath, but the neighbours r juz too noisy and happening..haiz..
the nxt dae went off early for sbs dae again..overall, fun and happening..so much better than expected..okok..so i hav low expectations though..haha.and i did some nail arts and one snow flake look alike pendant.(so pure..)..hahha..
okok..tiring..tml still hav lessons at 830..gg slp early..after 2 daes of hard wrk..and i gt swollen eye..argh..n went to ask the tcm tutor bout it..he was saeing due to heatiness, haiz..stopid swollen n ugly eye..hope it'll cool dwn soon..i'm gg drink lotsa lotsa lotsa of water..argh..stopid swollen eye..argh..
wat can i sae?recently juz too busy to tink bout it..too busy..too busy..extreme busy..i'm juz disappointed..tts all..wat can i sae..accept overcum n let go..
Reminiscing stops at |1:12 AM|
Sunday, March 05, 2006
another wkend in hall..
for the past one wk, it has been an emotional wk for mi..if u hav seen mi being unusually quiet lately, it doesnt mean i'm hurt nor sad..juz tt, i';m juz too tired wif all e wrk piling up and more activties cuming up..totally tired..tts for the early wk..for the later part of the wk..the wkend, it has been extremely horrible, terrible and disappointing once again..the feeling juz suck..being numb to it and nt able to cry out all ur troubles..i'm lost..totally lost..
my smile was undercut by a look of permanent sadness that i was trying hard to hide..no one will ever understand the pains and hurt i'm gg thru''...
shant bored u all wif the daily boring activties..
haiz..gg 2 b extreme busy for nxt few wks..
tonite..hav 2 go hall 8 to practise for sbs dae performance..
mon - quizzes..covering 6 lect..argh..
- nite..hav 2 b in sch for sbs dae final rehersal..
tue - sbs dae..long dae..argh..
wed - project discussion
sat - ntu open hse
nxt wk - project presentation and quizze covering 6 lect again..argh..
nxt nxt wk..marketing inidividual report..another 13 hrs gg 2 b gone..haiz..
dose r the more cfm ones..
juz cum back fr jubilee hall nt long ago..went 2 watch hall 8 production..support cat and yp..well done galz..gd job..
super tiring though..
i have accept it unknowningly and foolishly, nw its time for mi to overcum it and let go..plz do gif mi strength for tt..
its unfair hw u manage to gif up and 4gt so easily and yet i'm still struggling here..
okok..tired..time to go slp and wake up early 2 study for quiz tml..
Reminiscing stops at |2:06 AM|
skinny mi..mugging in sch..
i love dis convertible fr Saab
mini cooper..so cute..suitable for little ts?hahahha
