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Tuesday, October 11, 2005
life in uni juz sux..hw mani times hav i mentioned dis..but tt's the truth, wonder hw long can i tahan dis kind of sucky life..
was juz doing mi biostats assignment which make up 30 % of the exam mark..wth..n we're doing it wif all the yr 2 bio sci students..haiz..in terms of everythingy, lab reports all dese, dey r more experienced than us..it's juz so unfair of us..right nw, we're coping hw 2 do the lab reports, wif so mani lab reports piling up every wk..and when we haven get the gist of it, here we r, doing the assignments, trying to write a report about the validity of the biostats in the medical journal..haiz..n during the wkend, i had juz rushed thru 2 of mi lab reports..n nw..haiz..i hav to rush thru the assignment which has to b handed in dis cuming fri..haiz..3 more daes..in fact, juz 2 more daes for mi to hand in an "goot" and "well-done" reports..
everyone is in the mugging mood nw..but mine is so inconsistent at all..somehw, sometimes, i feel lyk mugging and sometimes i hav no motivation at all..the feeling juz suck la..i wonder hw long will mi past motivation to study and mi determination returned to the nw pathetic mi..counting dwn to the no of daes, i feel tt..i juz can't finish everythingy..haiz..plz plz..i nid motivation..and no more DISTRACTION plz..
i feel tt i'm looking older and ragged..shit..all thanks to the midnight oil i hav been burning..juz last nite, i slept ard 430 to 5 lyk tt..in the morning la..sianz..mi mum has been telling mi tt staying up late at nite, will make one look damn damn old la..in fact, will juz lose the beauty..okie..i alreadie look so bad liao..haiz..dun wana it to get worse..and look lyk a 40yr old woman when i was juz gg 2 b 20..but i can't help it at all..mi motivation to study onli cum after 12..haiz..tt's bad..in the dae, no motivation at all..tried..but nuthun seems to get into mi saturated brain..
everyone is changing..
but sometimes, i juz prefer to stay the same..
i wonder wat kind of situation r we in nw..wonder wat r we tinking nw..even i miself dun even understand mi own feelings, and y sometimes i hav such drastic actions..in the past, i nvr nvr doubt miself b4, after noeing u, and watever we hav gone thru tgt, ..the times we enjoyed tgt, the hurtings we done to each other, the sadness we brought to each other, i reallise i hav changed..i'll nvr b the same again..so r we? even nw i dun even noe miself at all..
juz wan everythingy to b back to normal..though we stared toking more than the seem-so-long lasting quiet period, the feelings seem diff..r we trying 2 get back 2 tt time?i wonder..r we?..juz hope everythingy will b fine, after this stressful exam period..
My love for you is a journey; Starting at forever, And ending at never.
Reminiscing stops at |4:52 PM|
